time keeps on slippin slippin slippin... into the future

 so i have lost track of time in an absurd way.

i had always updated this blog every two weeks or so. but it been QUITE a hot minute now

i haven't been in the best of mental health and that is probably why.

a lot of my plans for 2024 got nipped in the bud, as they say.

Beau is still here and he is my little baby boy. He is curled up next to me right now.

Lilly has become distant but sometimes she puts her foot down and demands mom time

I am still playing in the community band for now but will be taking off the next concert set because i need to get dental work done and i dont know how long it will take for me to recover.

there is a slight chance i might not be able to play clarinet anymore after this happens and it has thrown my mental health into the GUTTER.

I had hoped to drive to alabama this spring and see my family but i can't get my car fixed and everytime we have money something comes up.

that's life though.

my mom finally sold nana and pawpaw's house.... i am very sad about it but it is a great house and needed to be lived in. and in such a small town-- the person who bought is was a classmate of dad's and ALSO one of my old friend's dads. Leslie and I were besties when i worked at shop and save and she said she walked through the house and was flooded with memories of our friendship and that the bedroom i stayed in is being done for his kids when they visit. 

literally couldn't ask for a better ending than that, you guys!

i'm gonna photo dump here for a bit.

we took beau to the groomer and he got his hair did. he looks like such a cutie pie with his short hair.

he looks SPUNKY!

pic showing how long my hair is now!!!! i hate my face so i scribbled it out.

i reworked my memorial in animal crossing for mawmaw, nana, and pawpaw. it looks much better now, in my opinion

my band mate Kathy gave me this pop up card for my birthday and i thought it was just the neatest thing. it's in my journal along with my card from Melanie and the one fro my mom and dad

HAPPY NEW YEAR

 it's quite a bit late but i have an update 

I have joined the community band once again and I am very happy. i am sad i missed out on the christmas music because of my travel plans

the music this time is easier and we are playing something by Robert W. Smith who passed away this last fall.....

who was a huuuuuge deal in the south and especially at Troy university (where I attended school for two years before my mental health got too bad) I had asked the community band director if we could play something of his to honor him and now we are actually doing it and I am so very happy!

Beau had been a blessing all these weeks, months. he has kept me going when nothing else could.

I finally told my doctor about the coffee ground stool i have been having and it had pushed up a test that i've needed to get done for two years now but i just wouldn't let my husband allocate those funds to my health and..we seem to have met at a point where.... it needs to be done and we will find a way with a payment plan

so that is happening on feb 9

i see my therapist for the last time on thursday. she is leaving MindPsi and will no longer be doing therapy with them after that. it's a mostly just.... tie up loose ends and what not.

the biggest thing is on FRIDAY I am getting my hair cut for the first time in two years.

i have talked to the lady on fb messenger and we seem to get along so i just hope i can get my hair trimmed and taken care of

and now for some photos:::

here's some photos of the boy!

he's a blessing!!!