Wednesday, October 27, 2021

Wed Oct 27, 2021

 Sooo, my husband and I are taking a trip in November.. from Nov 12 to 21st.

this is a huge deal for me because, well.. I haven't been out of the house for more than a few hours in like, 2 years. And its a really long time to be away from home.

It's a vacation, I know but with anxiety like I have vacations become..almost terrifying

we are taking the trip back to where he's from, to see his family. I love his mother so much, and his grandmother. But they plan to gather up the extended family for a thanksgiving gathering and it's a ton of people that I don't know at all. which is terrifying.

I am going to do this because I love my husband.

The good news is that the gathering is the day after we get there, so we can get it over with and hopefully I can relax the rest of the trip.

I'm debating on whether i want to take my computer with me on the trip, or just do a big post here after the trip is over.

i'm doing a lot of planning and list making and trying to manage my anxiety. 

Thursday, October 21, 2021

thursday october 21, 2021

 weekly blog update!

so our trip to visit my husbands family and friends is confirmed and the dates are set.

it's gonna be a long trip so i'm mentally prepping myself by making lists and planning as much as i can, which is what i do when i get anxious about something that's coming up. especially something as big as this.

It's close to Halloween so i've been watching some spooky movies and tv shows. I'm currently watching the movie "It"

I am a fan of Stephen King.

Today I put make up on just to see if I could remember how to do it. since on the trip i will be wearing makeup most every day. and i haven't been recently

Tuesday, October 12, 2021

Tuesday Oct 12, 2021

 Today is tuesday and i'm behind on blogging again.

lots of physical work last friday, i used a nail gun!

the usual shopping on saturday.

Alabama lost it's game and it's the end of the world! haha

I am really hungry lately and I dont know if i'm just feeling empty inside and need to fill a void or if... My metabolism is higher now that i'm doing physical work. Maybe both.

Tuesday, October 5, 2021

a day late! Oct 5, 2021

 I planned to blog every monday but I didn't manage to get around to it yesterday.

I did a lot of physical work on sunday and I am still feeling it today haha

I had an appointment to get my meds refilled today, and it was an in person visit. which means we had to drive 1.5 hours to get to my doctor. That means today is a bad day. lol hate having to get my husband to drive me to the doctor when it's that far. =(

If we get new tires for my car i can drive myself so there is that option.

since i blew off all my chores yesterday, i have a lot to do today. so i will be cutting this short.

also there are things i cannot discuss yet, so yes. theres a lot going on but no, i am not talking about it.

Sunday, October 3, 2021