Bipolar Type I - Generalized Anxiety Disorder w/ Panic attacks & OCD - PTSD - Chronic Eating Disorder (since 2005, it comes and goes)

Tuesday, May 26, 2020

May 26, 2020

so a lot has happened since I last updated.
Well, not really so much just a really big thing.
Save for my iron infusions and therapy and what not....

My Mawmaw died and we put her to rest yesterday. She had been sick for a long time and in a lot of pain... she lived a long life and died at home.
At the funeral I got to see a lot of my family that I had not seen in really long time and it was kind of great. Like really great.

This morning I got up at 5am and went to get my second iron infusion.

This makes the second round of times i've had to get iron. because they give you two or three infusions, a week apart.  i had it done last fall and now again.

I dunno where my iron is going but I need it to please stay in my body ok thanks.

My car broke down today, AFTER my appointment which is good. I mean, in the general scheme of things yeah, that's the best way that could have gone down. lol

My Mother-in-law sent me a super late birthday gift and it is ADORABLE and I love it.

my husband and I are watching Avatar: The Last Airbender together and it's pretty awesome. I never watched it before.

I'm still playing Animal Crossing New Horizons, I made a memorial for my mawmaw and my nana in the game. Cause you can basically design your own world in the game. you have your own island and do whatever you want.

So life is returning to normal apparently.
Lets see how it goes.



Friday, May 8, 2020

May 8, 2020

So today is a RAINING MESS OF A DAY

I went to the store for mothers day cards today, and that was kind of fun. I think I found some that are good enough Or something lol It's so hard to pick and then there's the fact that they're already picked through and not much is left.

Dad went to the dentist yesterday and now has an appointment later to get a root canal to save his tooth.
I need to go to the dentist soon too, I will probably end up losing atleast one more tooth. I hope we can save one of them though.

I have been having a blast playing animal crossing with my friend Jess and I didn't think I would enjoy doing that kind of thing because I am really protective of my island and dont like visitors but if they just come shop and stuff... I always make sure I have all my fruit and stuff picked before I get visitors because I'm afraid of getting looted. I have maybe three more people I wanna play with but we are having trouble scheduling the time to do it.

I'm trying to eat better again, I dont know how long it will last or what will happens but I'm going to try. I am fed up with my body. And my mental health is suffering very badly from it.

I have two iron infusions later this month so that will hopefully give me some more energy, I've been feeling very very exhausted all the time and also cold a good bit. (ok well to be honest I'm either cold or hot, I almost never have a comfortable temperature)

Anyway, not much else to report.

my husband is grilling or smoking meat or whatever this weekend so that will be a nice treat. its always so good when he does it, he know what he is doing, that's for sure.

Tuesday, May 5, 2020

I'm trying to update more

Mostly just to help my own sanity

Last night I didn't sleep very well, didn't take ambien and wasn't tired but when I finally dozed off around 1 or 2am it was so pleasant and gentle and it was like the best cat nap. woke up around 4:30 maybe 5am. I felt great. like so peaceful. and calm.
i'm i haven't slept at all today, which means tonight i should sleep very well. I hope.

My husband ate some bad chicken last night and has had tummy troubles all day. You just gotta be careful with chicken, you know?


I haven't played as much Animal Crossing as I planned today but I think if I had, i'd have gotten sleepy. so I've been doing other stuff.

I can't really figure out what. I've been writing in my journal. Attempting to color. My therapist thinks the anxiety relieving adult coloring books are very good for me to have a project to work on that doesn't have an actual level of quality that it requires but i can still make it as best as i can anyway??? does that make sense. like i can put effort into it if i want or i can just blah

I did clean the literbox and take out the trash and take the garbage cart down today.

But really a LOT of writing in my personal journal.


It's CINCO DE MAYO AND TACO TUESDAY DURING THE CORONA VIRUS QUARANTINE.
hahha

Sunday, May 3, 2020

Some Animal Crossing Photos

outfit of the day

another outfit

cutsie photo

Bubbles is my bestie, she is hilarious and kind

Finally got Nook's Cranny updated

My room is red and black themed

another outfit of the day

Saturday, May 2, 2020

May 2, 2020

So they have lessened the rules on quarantine here in alabama. Probably not a good idea, but what can you do.

I've been playing Animal Crossing and Coloring a lot.

I went and saw my MawMaw again and had a nice time there with everyone who was there.

Not much is going on.

My stomach is bothering me a lot right now at the moment.
And also my lower back.

I'm not sure what is going to happen next in general, I think we are all just holding out breaths and waiting to see if the virus gets less and less or gets more in other places.

I'm thinking that the places like I live will get hit last because we are so off and away from others, it will take a while to get out here, if it does at all?