tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-57284344784431291652024-03-04T21:59:55.205-08:00 omfgitstabitha<center><img src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-11KokvRkdfo/Vqlu0cm6p-I/AAAAAAAAQ3E/5_zEb_rLIV4/s1600/tumblr_inline_mi58tjEAa91qzx3vs.png">IT'S ALL ABOUT THAT HOUSE WIFE LIFE, YALL. BLESSED!<img src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-11KokvRkdfo/Vqlu0cm6p-I/AAAAAAAAQ3E/5_zEb_rLIV4/s1600/tumblr_inline_mi58tjEAa91qzx3vs.png"></center>Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger127125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-30420208811704268262024-01-30T01:14:00.000-08:002024-01-30T01:14:33.483-08:00HAPPY NEW YEAR it's quite a bit late but i have an update I have joined the community band once again and I am very happy. i am sad i missed out on the christmas music because of my travel plansthe music this time is easier and we are playing something by Robert W. Smith who passed away this last fall.....who was a huuuuuge deal in the south and especially at Troy university (where I attended school Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-89485082773056711232023-12-28T16:34:00.000-08:002023-12-28T16:34:34.756-08:00happy holidays! it's taken me quite a bit of time to get around to making a blog post. this has been the biggest, most busy holiday season i have ever experienced.i have so many christmas gatherings. soooo many.well, i'm lumping thanksgiving in there because its all so close together.we went to alabama to see my family and stayed with my parents. our family gathering was small because people were sickUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-67580936380279093322023-12-18T17:29:00.000-08:002023-12-18T17:30:07.261-08:00almost home from Alabama!We are mere minutes from being home.I will update about my Alabama Christmas trip in full later. Tennessee on the way back was a nightmare. Traffic and road construction and windy. Right now I Just want to post a picture or two.
That's all for now. I need to save the rest for the real update.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-46477999002318431982023-11-29T19:42:00.001-08:002023-11-29T19:42:27.076-08:00this December This December I am going to focus on myself and my health. As much as I can. I have Beau to take care of and the house work. And my husband of course.I have been decorator Christmas but I haven't done the tree or the lights outside yet. I'm waiting for December first.My PTSD has been bothering me a lot here lately and it's affecting my relationship with my husband. I don't know what to do Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-72259774849913653102023-11-24T20:59:00.001-08:002023-11-24T20:59:26.043-08:00I haven't been blogging very much lately I have previously waited and gotten my laptop out to make blog post but it think this will be easier don't on a cell phone.We took Beau to Stan's dad's for Thanksgiving and he did ok. It was his first gathering and he got so excited that he couldn't just..... He wanted to meet all the people. And the people where busy doing thanksgiving. He ended up in his kennel or in a room barred of with a Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-29105484801859156502023-10-29T01:33:00.005-07:002023-10-29T01:33:53.760-07:00I'm still alive! I am trudging along.Beau is a good dog and I am so happy we were lucky enough to find him and make him our little one.Lilly is not taking to it very well. I think she is more grumpy now than she was when we first got him. I'm not really sure what to do. I think she needs more space where he can't get to her but that would involve her going into the spare bedroom which... will be occupied Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-11402111057305337312023-10-09T13:41:00.001-07:002023-10-09T13:41:32.400-07:00I haven't updated in forever! and i've been very busy actually for once. We adopted a shih-tzu yorkie mix (shorkie?)and he is... the best thing that has happened to us in a long time.He is so well tempered he is adorable. And he is learning to leave Lilly alone.we have been using a squirt water gun to get him to stop chasing after her and its working great.i have a band concert this sunday and i am playing much better Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-78901616750010533312023-09-08T10:07:00.006-07:002023-09-08T10:07:54.342-07:00It's done we went back to Alabama and got the rest of our stuff. we officially live in Kentucky now. hahaI feel so good about having all my weird stuff I collected. I'm going through it all and tossing stuff and donating and selling what I don't need. a lot of stuff had been in storage for years so... i wasn't missing it too much obviously.we have ended up with duplicates of stuff because we moved Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-50813798687380021102023-08-23T11:44:00.000-07:002023-08-23T11:44:16.289-07:00its been wayyyy too long! So life has been trudging along. i'm still struggling with diabetes. can't get my blood sugar stable right now. i thought it was good and then i dont know what happened but i've been struggling for about two weeks now.tomorrow my husband and i are going to my father in law's house to stay over night and leaving from there to go back home to get the rest of our stuff from alabama. we are Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-21603451729808588542023-07-25T03:56:00.005-07:002023-07-25T03:56:50.921-07:00it's been awhileeeee so i have... so much to say that i dont even know WHAT to say. I know no one is reading this but I am going to update anyway.my health is slightly better but i am still struggling. we are coming to a point where we are last ditch efforting my iron deficiency anemia. after this last thing, we will have to start the process of getting expensive tests done. however i, SOMEHOW... VERY UNLIKE MEUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-20278864699467816082023-07-03T04:34:00.000-07:002023-07-03T04:34:07.587-07:00I need to update badly I haven't updated because life has been... well, in the gutter, so to speak.my mental health is very poor (despite my therapist thinking it was great for a while)I have come to admit I am having memory and cognitive problems. It's almost as if an early dementia that old people get... but I am far too young.we are ruling out things... such as sleep apnea but I met with a sleep study Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-5337125581779164802023-05-17T13:45:00.001-07:002023-05-17T13:45:48.782-07:00copy pasta from facebookI just forced myself to do all the self care. Shower. Shaved my legs with the good razor. Used the good shampoo and conditioner. Hair oil (coconut oil ... much needed!) On braided towel dried hair to dry. Face care (moisturizer with salicylic acid because I have oily face skin) Body moisturizer with the hemp seed oil lotion I love so much. But when I run out of this i am going back toUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-20885685659628928992023-05-16T18:17:00.001-07:002023-05-16T18:17:31.343-07:00I hate doctorsWent to the doctor today....Doc thinks my forgetting everything all the time is memory problems from sleep apneaSo I will get a sleep studyWhich he already asked for but never heard anythingSo we asked for it againI'm gonna end up with a CPAP machine.. And still cognitive memory problems basically But they have to rule out everything before they diagnose me with... Anything??? You know? Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-36600749693918239392023-05-02T09:26:00.001-07:002023-05-02T09:26:08.618-07:00short update
Retail therapy. All my food is eaten in bowls now. And I am tired of washing the same three bowls over and over. Also two of them are vintage pyrex and should probably be stored away somewhere safe. They are very special to my husband.I also allowed myself to buy new gym shorts in a size smaller. Which is a huge deal because I do not see myself as smaller at all. I lost weight Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-55697727244968103632023-04-23T05:44:00.001-07:002023-04-23T05:44:21.290-07:00Sunday morning thoughtsThis afternoon is my band concert y'all please keep me in your thoughts. I am comfortable with the people I'm with but at a new venue and new things and I am really anxious. Also about playing because they stream the concert and record it. Ughhh. Pressure is so high. Also I am wearing dress black for the concert and it's all new clothes and shoes. Which I am always uncomfortable about. I'm about Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-32590847248089725662023-04-09T17:02:00.004-07:002023-05-17T14:29:57.446-07:00more diag-non senseso i went to the doctor to get a check up on my iron levels, just had bloodwork done and my glucose was high so my doctor decided to check my A1C. My A1C is 9.5 so I am type 2 diabetic.I feel really overwhelmed. because i had just lost 35 lbs last fall and i know i’m still overweight but i am angry as fuckBecause I have to work even harder. And lose more and yeah i know i am fat in the present Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-90539860761062902802023-03-30T23:19:00.001-07:002023-03-30T23:19:14.158-07:00bipolar notes in the middle of the nightMy sleep schedule is off again. I'm wide awake at 2am. I guess I will read books. I need to get on a normal schedule or my bipolar rears its ugly head. And I am just now getting myself socially active and doing stuff. I do not have time for this. Ugh. Melatonin needs to work it's magic. I'm only taking 5mg. I could go to 10…? On nights I am feeling very amped up Maybe? I see my psychiatrist next Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-6168686481448351052023-03-12T20:42:00.002-07:002023-03-12T20:42:08.010-07:00I joined a band! It has been so long since I have played clarinet with a band. or played at all.So Last sunday I went to rehearsal and it was just a play through of everything. I absolutely could not play a note at all. I just sat there holding my clarinet. I cried a little. I was so overwhelmed. I knew I could play the music but... I couldn't.So I spent this past week practicing every day. most days twice Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-48196053233547155562023-02-16T01:46:00.001-08:002023-02-16T01:46:23.631-08:00midnight reading againI'm rereading prozac nation ...Got a TON of quotes pages flagged to type up from "prozac nation" I read it before but didn't mark it up and type up quotes.I have a lot of stuff I need to type up right now. I found a printed collection of my old poetry that I do not have digitally anywhere and it might come in handy some day so I'm going to type it all out.I also have quotes from "midnight in the Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-76340945482638201242023-02-11T00:21:00.001-08:002023-02-11T00:21:24.201-08:00Feb 11, 2023 This has been... a really bumpy ride for the start of the year.my mental health deteriorated in december and continued through january. i didn't talk about it in detail but in retrospect it like like a slow motion car crash.except the waves feelings and emotions piled up higher and higher and i couldn't get a grip on it. i couldn't sleep. i went two days without sleep. and finally crashed Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-22179589298461074812023-01-16T16:00:00.001-08:002023-01-16T16:00:35.128-08:00first book of 2023
Almost done with my first book of 2023. Have a lot of quotes to type up and add to my collection. Might not keep all of these but probably most of them.I don't usually buy hardback books because I want to highlight my quotes and feel bad doing it in hardback books. But this was a special book. So I'm page marking, typing, then removing the markers. Might eventually buy a paperback andUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-78539561630811934712023-01-04T08:37:00.006-08:002023-01-04T08:37:39.314-08:00happy new year! wednesday jan 4, 2023 happy new year.we are home and i have some personal new years goals. and some for me and my husband as a couple-- such as spending more time with his family.i'm getting my clarinet fixed and i am going to join a community band. i missed sign up for the first spring concert but i should get my clarinet in time to do the second one if they take sign ups between concerts and not just at the Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-46314674651662917632022-12-24T01:23:00.000-08:002022-12-24T01:23:07.407-08:00Some photos from the trip. Alabama Christmas 2022
This is my cousin (sister) who I can talk to about anything. ANYTHING. she is my person. Ride or die. Cradle to grave. ❤️
This photo is so very precious to me. This is my and Sky, the little girl I baby sat last year. I hadn't seen her in a year. She barely remembered me but she has such a big heart I was no stranger to her at all. I helped her eat her lunch at the Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-62969465354617880592022-12-20T06:55:00.001-08:002022-12-20T06:55:14.530-08:00Alabama Christmas vacation part oneAlabama Christmas 2022Monday nightOk I planned on making more mini updates on my phone and clumping them together and making a big update after we got back from Alabama. But I didn't write anything for Saturday or Sunday… so I will do that now.Saturday was the drive down and it was pretty good. We went a different way then we'll usually go and it took us through the very top edge of Georgia. The Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5728434478443129165.post-44329009235484461672022-12-12T22:29:00.001-08:002022-12-12T22:29:53.227-08:00Monday December 12, 2022Ok guys I am having what I can only describe as a slow burn panic attacks. It's going. And it's been going for a few days. It gets a little worse sometimes (like yesterday afternoon) this morning I'm having a hard time. I guess it could be assorted anxiety attacks but it feels like it's rolling up to something huge.I'm having to literally ration my anxiety medication because this new doctor does Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0