Sunday, May 19, 2024
its been a while
Thursday, April 11, 2024
time keeps on slippin slippin slippin... into the future
so i have lost track of time in an absurd way.
i had always updated this blog every two weeks or so. but it been QUITE a hot minute now
i haven't been in the best of mental health and that is probably why.
a lot of my plans for 2024 got nipped in the bud, as they say.
Beau is still here and he is my little baby boy. He is curled up next to me right now.
Lilly has become distant but sometimes she puts her foot down and demands mom time
I am still playing in the community band for now but will be taking off the next concert set because i need to get dental work done and i dont know how long it will take for me to recover.
there is a slight chance i might not be able to play clarinet anymore after this happens and it has thrown my mental health into the GUTTER.
I had hoped to drive to alabama this spring and see my family but i can't get my car fixed and everytime we have money something comes up.
that's life though.
my mom finally sold nana and pawpaw's house.... i am very sad about it but it is a great house and needed to be lived in. and in such a small town-- the person who bought is was a classmate of dad's and ALSO one of my old friend's dads. Leslie and I were besties when i worked at shop and save and she said she walked through the house and was flooded with memories of our friendship and that the bedroom i stayed in is being done for his kids when they visit.
literally couldn't ask for a better ending than that, you guys!
i'm gonna photo dump here for a bit.
Tuesday, January 30, 2024
HAPPY NEW YEAR
it's quite a bit late but i have an update
I have joined the community band once again and I am very happy. i am sad i missed out on the christmas music because of my travel plans
the music this time is easier and we are playing something by Robert W. Smith who passed away this last fall.....
who was a huuuuuge deal in the south and especially at Troy university (where I attended school for two years before my mental health got too bad) I had asked the community band director if we could play something of his to honor him and now we are actually doing it and I am so very happy!
Beau had been a blessing all these weeks, months. he has kept me going when nothing else could.
I finally told my doctor about the coffee ground stool i have been having and it had pushed up a test that i've needed to get done for two years now but i just wouldn't let my husband allocate those funds to my health and..we seem to have met at a point where.... it needs to be done and we will find a way with a payment plan
so that is happening on feb 9
i see my therapist for the last time on thursday. she is leaving MindPsi and will no longer be doing therapy with them after that. it's a mostly just.... tie up loose ends and what not.
the biggest thing is on FRIDAY I am getting my hair cut for the first time in two years.
i have talked to the lady on fb messenger and we seem to get along so i just hope i can get my hair trimmed and taken care of
and now for some photos:::
Thursday, December 28, 2023
happy holidays!
it's taken me quite a bit of time to get around to making a blog post.
this has been the biggest, most busy holiday season i have ever experienced.
i have so many christmas gatherings. soooo many.
well, i'm lumping thanksgiving in there because its all so close together.
we went to alabama to see my family and stayed with my parents. our family gathering was small because people were sick and also my cousin had just had a baby and couldn't be there. not seeing my cousin really put a downer on things but i got to see my other cousins and trade pokemon with one of my best friends and super smash brothers with my cousin's little boy. we took beau and everyone loved him so much.
we have a little nighttime christmas present swap with my parents. and i am so happy. they got me a sewing machine so i can make stuff now. i haven't opened it because i haven't had a day of down time. not even today.
the sunday we were in alabama i got to see the little girl i had baby sat years ago and her parents and her younger sister who was an infant last time i saw her.
on the way back i managed to hurt my arm somehow and i dont know how-- which is why today i didn't get to rest i went to the doctor because it never stops hurting.
on the 23 we went to fatherinlaws house for their family christmas gathering and i was in a dark place and didn't really enjoy it. we left beau at home so we could actually enjoy the people that were there and that was nice.
on christmas day stan and i opened our stockings and gave beau his gifts. then we went and had lunch with his mother and grandmother.
after that we went to see his cousin and his cousin's partner which was nice because we hadn't seen them in months.
my husband went to the movies with a friend and they slept over at the apartment and we had some chill time. but my arm and sensory overload gave me a hard time and it ended up not being as much fun for me as i had hoped.
and that leaves us with today. i went to the urgent care for my arm, we got chinese and watched a movie. i took the pills they gave me for my arm pain and dozed off the whole afternoon.
i'm going to post a bunch of photos. some of them might be duplicates.