THE USUAL SUSPECTS.... Bipolar Type I - Anxiety - Eating Disorder

Friday, February 19, 2021

feb 16, 2021

 So, it seems as if something might be wrong with where they removed my teeth. We are waiting to see if it heals up any better, the pain is pretty bad.

We had SNOWWWWWWW. We got snowed in! The girl I baby sit had to stay here two nights in a row. I wish she had proper clothes and shoes so she could've played in the snow but she didnt, we weren't prepared for it. I didn't expect it. I went to bed thinking we'd get some sleet freezing rain frozen into ice.... I woke up and there was an inch or so of snow on the ground. so we had winter, basically. that's it. probably wont get anything else this year but atleast we had something. haha

this pic is of the back porch we are taking down but saving the wood, so thats why it looks that way

i'm trying to get in the groove of baby sitting during the week and resting on the weekends but we haven't been able to get much rest on the weekends due to circumstances and it's causing some mental and emotional wear and tear, if you know what i mean

thankfully i think this weekend will be more easy.

I'm slacking on my 2021 reading challenge goal already. SAD FACE
I might try to finish my book this afternoon, there isn't much left.

I'm still playing Stardew Valley, and they finally updated it on the Nintendo Switch so that is something to do in the empty spaces of my time. 

Tuesday, February 9, 2021

February 9, 2021

 SOOOOOO.... tomorrow I FINALLY get my teeth cut out. after all the waiting and rescheduling twice.

After that we are going to have to look at options for me when it comes to ...implants or what not.

I have been playing Stardew Valley a lot. Still rewatching Bridgerton.

This past weekend my husband and I took a weekend to our selves and stayed in a hotel to get away from everything. It was lovely. We went to Olive Garden and it was divine. It was so very nice to get away from the world, just me and him. and no responsibilities. no chores. no house work. for a day or two. it was amazing.

I'm still baby sitting, i'm basically an Auntie. I love this little girl and if anything happens to her I will lose my mind. lol

Friday, January 29, 2021

Jan 29, 2021

 Not much new has happened... more baby sitting.

Oh, we had to reschedule my oral surgery AGAIN. but this time it was the surgeon that needed to reschedule.

I've been rewatching Bridgerton over and over and playing Stardew Valley and Animal Crossing.

But mostly just baby sitting. It's exhausting here lately.

My husband is wonderful and I love him. I just wanted to throw that out there lol

Tuesday, January 19, 2021

Jan 19, 2021


I've been baby sitting again, and well.... it's great!

We called the dentist and got an appointment with the oral surgeon and then had to reschedule so I wont be getting my teeth worked on until Feb 2. This is after already having to wait almost three weeks from calling to make the first appointment. YEAH, it's been kind of crappy.

I've started a new save file in Stardew Valley. it's really relaxing, and there's some new content from updates.... though i dont think the very last update has rolled out for the switch yet. but the last one before that has.

Some of my ebay orders from the end of november are FINALLY rolling in, haha. The over seas shipping and christmas back up really got them slowed down.

There's something special that might happen and i can't talk about it, but if it does i will let everyone know. but until then my lips are sealed on anything and everything involving it.

Sunday, December 27, 2020

sunday december 27, 2020

 So I made it through christmas, but it didn't feel like christmas at all.

I really miss my Pawpaw, and my nana... though she's been going a few years now.

My mom was very strong through christmas, she didn't seem to cry at all... I know I did, though.

I baked cookies and made chocolate covered pretzels. Mom's dressing was so good. And my green bean casserole was ate up.

The gifts I got from my husband were nerdy and revolve around Starwars and The Mandalorian.

My mother got my clothes and some swanky hot cocoa stuff in little metal tins so that is cool.

I feel blessed this christmas but I just... I miss my pawpaw... my mawmaw... my family. We didn't have a big family gathering like we usually do either. which makes it even worse.

We got to see the little one i baby sit on christmas day so that was a nice boost to my mood, she was adorable and it made me happy. But the amount of people in the house kind of made it harder to enjoy.

I wont see her again until january 4th.

I have to see a dentist soon because i am have a lot of pain in my mouth.

and my iron is low, and i need to get bloodwork done but i think the dentist is more important right now.

neither of these things can be done until january anyways, the end of december is no time to try and get anything done-- places are always closed. blah blah blah.

Friday, December 18, 2020

Friday December 18, 2020

 has it really been this long since i've updated???? ahhh

i've been so busy baby sitting i have barely noticed the time passing.

I am so exhausted lately! I think my iron is low again but i dont wanna make an appointment until the new year. my nails are breaking and peeling and i'm bruising and i just have no energy no matter what i do.

I got a new planner for the new year and it's smaller and I love it.

I am now collecting recipes and making a book of them to have for my own. I have two cookbooks printed in the 1980s and my moms collection and i'm getting some from pinterest and other places. It's my newest little project and it's exciting.

I had a really big emotional break down yesterday.... actually two of them. in one day. I'm trying really hard to not let the... my grandparents are dead thing get to me right now. but it's christmas and its the first one without pawpaw and my mawmaw.

I'm also having random bursts of "nana is dead" again even though its been two years.

my husband is doing his absolute best to make sure i have a good christmas and i feel blessed to have him in my life and i'm trying really hard to do the best i can. it's hard. it's really hard right now. but it will get easier after january... just get into the new year. surely it can't be worse than this one. because if it is... i don't even know what to do, honestly.

Saturday, November 28, 2020

nov 28, 2020


one of my cousins from Louisiana is here with two friends and they have been hunting. I know they're gotten atleast three deer so far.

we smoked a boston butt and ribs for thanksgiving instead of the usual thanksgiving food

the food was great

my anxiety got the best of me the day before thanksgiving.

and on thanksgiving day i had a breakdown about my pawpaw being dead and then the next day i slept most of the day

today we went to walmart and got some food to make it through the weekend and most of next week hopefully, unless we just eat way too much lol

It's coming up on time to renew my domain for another year. it's been getting more expensive every year and I dont like it but i dont wanna give my domain up either.