Thursday, October 31, 2019

the end of october 2019

a lot has happened and i dont feel like talking about it, i have a lot of very bad feelings
there is something in the works, but we are unsure if it will happen and i am on edge.
life is shity and i know it will get better but i just dont know.

i'm  coloring and right now i have a friend who wants me to wrap some crystals for jewelry and i'm trying to focus on my hobbies that i know would usually be my happy things if i were happy.

i'm using joke and humor to cover up my sadness and its making people think i'm ok when i'm not, and i have done this all my life but i havent ever really actually addressed it until recently. so... i dont know... my therapist and i are making some huge leaps right now which is great but if this thing in the works happens..... then i will lose her and cant see her and it will be.... hard to start again with someone new.... but... i know i can do it, i've done it before. i can do it again.

anyways i'm about to work on some jewelry stuff before tomorrow and eat some fruit loops.

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the end of october 2019

a lot has happened and i dont feel like talking about it, i have a lot of very bad feelings there is something in the works, but we are uns...