Thursday, October 10, 2019

my scheduled blog post

I have set up a habit tracker to try and motivate and keep track of my stuff so i have schedule to blog today.
there is a lot going on.

i had therapy yesterday and stan came into my session with me (he usually does not)
and we had a very open "this is the real  deal" what with my therapist because i tend to skirt the issues and use humor and jokes to avoid talking about the problems. and stan wanted to make sure that didn't happen this time.

that being sad.

something has happened in my family.
a death. not of a blood relative, but someone who married into the family.
a suicide.
the situation is extremely complicated and i will not talk about it here,

so prayers are gratefully accepted. this is a strange time. (if you know the situation youd under stand why its so very strange and uncomfortable, but its not my place to share this information)

so that is what is happening now
on top of helping my mom babysit, which is the highlight of my day. my week. my life. its the best thing. taking care of this baby is the happiest i've been in a very long time, which bring up other sadness that aches at the core of my being. so this is a very confusing time for me.
but I am alive and I am ok. and that is a miracle in and of itself, isnt it??
i am grateful for my husband and the life i have.
and that is all i can say.

please think of my family (my cousin specifically)
bless everyone
have a wonderful thursday.

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my scheduled blog post

I have set up a habit tracker to try and motivate and keep track of my stuff so i have schedule to blog today. there is a lot going on. i...