so my medicine seems to be helping me. i went outside and layed in the sun for over an hour-- and have a sunburn to prove it. lol
it felt good to be outside. i would (might) do it again today but a sunburn on top of a sunburn might not be a good feeling lol. i know i should use suncreen but then i will ever tan. i always burn and then tan (if i can keep moisturized and not peel)
my birthday is saturday and its just another day for me, i'm not really wanting to do anything for it.
i am so close to retiring my main stardew valley farm. i am on year 11 now and i have 20,000,000 something in gold and i just wanna roll that 2 over from 9 to 100,000,000 -- which will not display on the game because there isn't enough digit slots. i will essentially "break the bank"
and then i will retire this farm and do a new one. maybe a different kind of farm. a river or forest farm.
i have master the whole fast track to money thing so if i can get that done i can play around with designs on these new farms... they are set up different with space and water areas.
GAME OF THRONES COMES BACK FOR THE FINAL TIME SOON
Also the Avengers: Endgame
so this is exciting things
also in May the crawfish boil.... which will need the house and yard to be cleaned-- and maybe, just maybe, i will have the energy and nondepression feels to help them out and that will make me feel good about myself.
also it is Marya Hornbacher's Birthday-- she wrote "wasted" and "madness" and a few other wonderful books about mental illness and I am her friend on facebook so I sent her a message. I forgot her birthday and mine were two days apart. haha. that is so cool.
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