I have tried to keep myself mostly unaffected by the feels of losing a friend this week mostly because I have a festival to do Saturday.
After that we are going to Kentucky to visit family instead of the beach.
Tomorrow I am packing up the festival stuff and going to mom and dad's after Stan gets off work. We have to take miss Lilly because she has to stay there while we go on vacation. I will hate being away from her bad between sat and the time we leave and while we are gone but she has done this before and she will be okay. I know she will likely lose weight while at mom's because she doesn't feed her everyday like I do. Not as much as I do. They can't have cat food sitting around out in the open because of Aiden ..... He can't have normal cat food.
I'm slowly learning to trust this predictive auto correct spelling checker.. I know a a lot of people have funny bad experiences with it but it seems to get what I am trying to type most of the time even though I am ridiculously off on my touch screen typing.
The festival is probably not going to be that big but I am hoping to make around $200..
When we go to Kentucky I will be able to interact with people like a semi normal person which will be interesting since that has yet to really happen.
I also get to go to the awesome places to shop and actually maybe look for something for myself because I should have the money. And I won't be looking for anything for my friends this time I just sent something and I don't even know if she is going to speak to me again. Which makes me really really sad but I don't... Have time to be sad right now. I have to put my big girl panties on and do good at this festival and keep my shit together next week in Kentucky. So that's what I'm gonna do. For me and for Stan.