Props to the girl! I fell in love with Miranda's voice and attitude the first time I heard "Gunpowder and Lead" on the radio at Shop&Save. I have trouble finding a song of hers that I don't identify with deeply in one way or another.
And her voice? Probably my second favorite female country vocalist... second to Taylor Swift. But I'm almost ready to switch those two names...

Miranda and Taylor are also two of the most beautiful women I've seen. Ever.

She has the most nominations in this year's CMAs. Last I heard last night was 7, but today I read that she's gotten NINE. 

WOW. Just, wow.

Right now the song I can't get out of my head, no matter how hard I try, is "Only Prettier"

(What amused me, is if you disregard what you know from what she says the song is about, and also disregard the video... You can think of "party" as meaning political party. And get some giggles)

Complete discography and lyrics here: Cowboylyrics.com

Do yourself a favor and find a way you can listen to this amazing woman.

Here's the fun part.
Where I get to say that this weekend I am going on a three day long date
With an irish boy.
Who is "from" New Jersey.

This is horribly amusing to me because of events in the past.

Continue Reading, kids. lmao.

1. PRACTICE CLARINET. (von Weber, all of the All-State pieces, also need to put all music in a huge durable folder because these little cardboard ones from ages ago aren't holding up the weight of the amount of music in them)
2. Type out my old essays from English Comp and Western Civ. (for shits and giggles, and so I can remind myself how for I've come, writing wise)
3. Go through all my college note books more closely (as I found some poetry hidden in the back of some of them, that I don't think I ever typed into anywhere online, so it's like a hidden treasure lol)
4. Exercise. Been too depressed to do this lately.
5. Make out small fliers OR business card type things to give out to the higschool clarinets Thursday.
6. FIND OUT IF MR. POWELL WANTS ME TO COME THURSDAY, FOR SURE. I think he does, but I want to make absolutely sure before I randomly show up at the practice session thursday.
7. Put all my poetry in the new binder I found for it-- un-staple all the stapled stuff and place into the page protectors.
8. Type up more stuff to add to my book project tumblr. 

• "god that guy looks like a mythical weasel from space with down syndrome"
• ""can you help me with this load of dead syrupy bees?" "no" "FUCK YOU""
• "a victoria's secret catalog just fell out of my ass :<"
• "i smile at people and they look at me like i'm retarded... they're called manners motherfucker get some"
• ""a string of pearls whipped repeatedly against his bloody member""
• "i just explained to some guy how to expel a baby rabbit's bowels"
• "i hate being on live television with combo crumbs all over my face..."
• "pus literally squirted out of my toe like 2 feet in the air IT WAS SO COOL"
• ""i'm gonna walk on every inch of this bread""
• "THAT SPERM WAS YOURS!! WHAT A SPERM-THIEVING WHORE SHE IS!!!"

IT'S THE OPPOSITE OF "THINGS JO SAYS"

YES I AM AMUSED BY MY INSANE IDEAS, SO STFU, THIS IS MY BLOG.

Um, click read more if you really have any interest in this, haha.

just black sharpie

no explanation needed.

Just used the usual various colored Sharpie markers.
I'm letting this one show in the news category, since it's the first thing I've scanned and posted in a while. There are even more over in the MISC DOODLES Cat.

http://www.sitemeter.com/?a=stats&s=s33omfgitstabithadotcom&v=4&r=9&vlr=89&pg=1&d=825

good show, A+

• Rascal Flatts - "Stand"

You feel like a candle in a hurricane

Just like a picture with a broken frame

Alone and helpless

Like you've lost your fight

But you'll be alright, you'll be alright

Link to lyrics (external link)

You said: "I remember how we felt sittin' by the water,

And every time I look at you, it's like the first time..."

Link to lyrics (external link)

I am not longer allowed at my grandparents house in Fayette. Nor do I want to be there. I had no idea there were so racist. Many, many of my good friends have been black. (Nicole- who was my bestest friend since 3rd grade, Martin- who i owe so much to after he pulled me out of my depression in spring 2007, JJ- who was always there for me even when the rest of the world turned their backs) and not to mention that I know so very amazing black people (shout out to many of KKPsi brothers and a lot of the Sound of the South members) such as Curtis and Foo and hell, I can't even being to name everybody.

It really, really pissed me off that my grandparents acted the way they did. I understand they are from an older generation, but for them to straight up tell me that I am not allowed to be around a friend just because of their race is not something I will tolerate.

Fayette is a small town full of gossiping old biddies, and apparently my grandparents don't want their "reputation slandered" because their granddaughter might be seen socializing with a friend who is black.

I'm not sure when I will speak to my grandparents on my mother's side again.

So now, instead of being in Fayette where I could go to the library, or BSCC and hang out in the bear's den and watch all the people play pool and ping pong (and I even kind of wanted to try playing myself, but I never got the chance because I was "ordered to return home immediately") I am at my parents house, 30 miles from any sort of civilization. No car, no money, and no friends. The only friends I have are in Fayette, and I know Lesley is really busy (especially since she works AND she has herself a man, now. <3 )

So here's my new plan:
1. wake up around 7 or 8 am. Have my huge glass of coffee, wash some dishes, make my bed, take my vitamins.
2. Do a little house work
3. Go walking for a very long time. (today I went walking for the first time and walked 4.2 miles. from my house, down Walter Shirley road all the way to Hwy 43, and then back) I plan to walk a little further every day. Eventually I might try to jog if my knees will let me.
4. Eat a very small lunch.
5. Do something creative in the afternoon. Art journal, write some poetry, play clarinet or piano.
6. Have a very small dinner.
7. Wash the dishes and clean the kitchen again.
8. Watch TV until I fall asleep.
And repeat repeat repeat.

My hope is to lose a good bit of weight before it's time for me to leave my parents house.
I can't and won't go into detail about that, but I will be getting the hell out of dodge, so to speak. It won't be for a while though. Probably 2 or 3 months. Maybe even longer. Who knows. But it will happen. I am expecting it to take a long time before I can leave because then if it happens sooner than I planned, that's a nice little surprise and will be very exciting and pleasant, you know? =)

I would attempt to get a job, but I have no car. And no money for gas. I owe my brother and parents and grandparents probably near $100 or even more. I will pay them back someday when I have the means to.
Until then I am at home, and I will attempt to take up as little space as possible, and eat as little of their food as possible. I'm already a burden as it is. I don't deserve to be here, I should be on the street in the first place.

I want to lose around 20 pounds (more if I can manage it), which is how much weight I gained while I was married. I need to do something to make myself feel fresh, free, and new. A new life. And since making new friends (which is what I was trying to do) is not an option.... So I'm gonna lose weight and see if that makes me feel better, I guess. The exercising can't hurt, at least. Whether I actually lose weight from exercising or not, atleast I should be in better physical condition when it's all said and done.

So here I am. I already walked a fuck ton, I just ate my lunch, I swept up some of the larger dustbunnies (we have three cats and a dog inside, so we get the massive balls of shedding hair lmao), my clothes are in the dryer, I put all my clothes I had packed away.
now I am going to probably write a little bit, do some art journaling. if I get the urge to do something musical I will play clarinet.

OH good news guys-- Dennis got the papers in the mail today that he needs to sign for the divorce. I think there are more things to be signed, this is only the initial part of it, but I am glad he got them. I fear stuff getting lost in the mail. haha.
So he will send them back tomorrow I guess, and then my lawyer will get in touch with me and we will see what happens next (as I have no idea how all this is supposed to go)
Mom is going to take Dennis's stuff to the post office and mail it to him tomorrow. Just some clothes and a book and DVD and some games that I accidentally ended up with. I can't find one of them, though. I looked everywhere. I dunno what happened to it. =( I hope he doesn't get too mad.

My head is starting to hurt really bad so I'm gonna stop starting at this screen and see if I can make it stop hurting. I've been getting really, REALLY bad headaches lately. I think it's allergies or sinus related. So I'm letting my mom tell me what to take for it-- since she has always had really really bad sinus/allergy problems. I think she will know what to do. =)

That's all for now. Maybe I can draw something and scan it and show you guys sometime this week. I haven't scanned and posted any doodle in a long time.

I hope everyone is having a good day, and has a good week.

I am going to be a big girl and make it through this whole "housebound" thing. Some how.
=)

Grandfather is picking me up after church and I will be back in Fayette until sometime later this week.
I am taking more clothes so maybe I won't have to wear the same pants over and over again. Haha.
I dunno if I'll do anything tonight, it's a sunday.
But monday I intend to resume prowling around BSCC to look for people I know. I am tempted to take my clarinet up there and sit outside and play some music. Maybe people will giggle at me and if I leave a cup for donations they will throw me a quarter or two? LMAO
That would be hilarious.
I wonder if Chris Gordon is looking for any musicians. I should probably try to run into him. He might not remember me, I should probably make sure I have my clarinet in hand when I go talk to him, just to make sure he gets the picture. Haha.

Yesterday I took my little brother to the mall and we went to random stores.
We ended up talking to the guy working at Plan9 for what felt like an hour. I am almost positive that if I stayed much longer he might have asked me for my number. But naaaaah. He was really nice, though. And actually could hold a conversation with me even despite how awkward I am. It was funny. HE THOUGHT I WAS 26 YEARS OLD. 26. OMFG. DO I LOOK THAT OLD? I need to stop smoking, I must be getting wrinkly. hahaha.

We also went to Spencer's where we talked to the guys working there for AGES. My brother is AWESOME at talking to people. He just walks right up and starts talking. I am amazed at how good he is at talking to random people. I get nervous and stuff, but since he was there to fill in the awkward silence gaps and push conversation along, it went pretty well.
And when I told the guys he was my BROTHER they thought it was all cute that I would take him out and such. His hot older sister taking him to the mall. haha. I thought I might get him to talk to some little girls, play the "wing man" role, but what it ended up being was more like HE helped ME talk to guys. I totally didn't INTEND on talking to any guys, but he kind of didn't give me a choice when he decides to start talking to, oh, for example, some random ginger guy in gamestop for like..30 mins while we looked for a game that we might both like to play on the xbox.
Word.

But really, I am horribly awkward, and the only guy I'm interested in seriously is... unavailable. So I'm kind of just going to go out and flirt and make friends and socialize. SOCIALIZE. ME? IMPOSSIBLE. I know, but I am doing it, somehow. I am very proud of myself. Social anxiety sucks balls, but I am working through it. It is somehow getting easier.
I even asked about three different places if they were hiring. got an application to one place, and was told to bring one in to this other place, which I will probably do today, because it's in Fayette.
=)

AAAAHHH. I feel really good lately, everybody. Life is pretty good.

It feels like I am coming back to life again.

Anyways, I gotta pack up this laptop because I am taking it with me this time, so until I have more interesting news, that's all.

EVERYBODY GET BUSY LIVING, MMMKAY.

• "please let [name omitted] pay attention to me and perhaps even say something nice to me, like "hey red let's fuck" i sure could use some forcible rape right about now"
• "she decided to tell us all in detail about the buttsex she's having with some 30 year old guy who is half her height and bald as hell and has no car. COOL"
• "TL;DR I'M AN EMO WHORE"

I stayed with my grandparents in Fayette, AL from sunday until today.
I signed some initial paperwork regarding my divorce, and so that is soon to be underway.

I've spoken to Dennis a little bit more, and I am happy we can atleast have a phone conversation without yelling at each other. This divorce will be good for both of us, this is what we need. To go our separate ways.

Two of my cousins are taking classes at Bevill, and a friend from highschool (Tashana) is taking classes there. Also, Justin and Danielle, who I worked with are taking classes there. And I've meet a few people who I didn't previous know yesterday that I like very much (Adam is a very nice young man, he needs to cheer up. He's cute and smart and has a lot going for him in life, he'll find that out later though, he's got to get a few years under his belt, and then he'll realize how awesome he is).
It's so good to get out and make new friends.

I am putting applications everywhere, even places that I don't know are hiring. lol. All of these places are in Fayette, though, because at least if it's in Fayette I can borrow my grandfather's car on most days if I need to get to work. And it's a very short drive to get to work in the first place. If I worked in Tuscaloosa I would have a 30 min drive from my parents house, and I'd have to work out a deal with my little brother so I can drive his car.
So right now I have an application for Dollar General. I will put on in at BOTH locations in Fayette. I also will try Fred's and Walmart (as a last option).
I also know, from hearing from my Aunt Karen, that Head Start needs subs and is short on workers, and while I have no degree or anything with early childhood care/education... I think they said the subs don't need that sort of thing. EITHER WAY, oh well.

I also have decided that I indeed want to help some of the Bevill students with their classes. I am pretty damn good with literature and science (Biology specifically),
I have a pretty unique way of taking notes and studying, so it will kind of like an experiment to see if I can teach a student to take notes as effectively as I do, and make use of the methods I used. I will have to go see if I can dig up my notes from when I was in school to give them examples of how I did my notes.
Pretty much I wrote everything down from the lectures verbatim using short hand (for those who can't write as fast, you can get a little recorder to record lectures)... then I would underline or circle the major key terms-- chapter headings, subjects, words that are definitions, etc.
And then I would re write them in an outline form.
And something that is PARTICULARLY good for biology, is making a flow chart that breaks down the specific areas that you are studying. This works wonders on the more specific biology courses like Organismal Bio with all the phylum and classes and families and such.

right now I am watching the history channel and getting ready to start a NEW art journal full of interesting things. I have made a lot of observations about people over the past few days... I have come to come new conclusions about people and socializing. =) it's very interesting, indeed.

ANYWAYS.
I am excited.

I'm writing you this letter to let you know I'm not alright. And in this city the streets are paved with hate And you cry yourself to sleep tonight. And say "no, there aren't enough love songs in the sky." ...

Her first time exposed to
The games and bitter ends
Her last time to feel clean
In broken English she says:
"I lost everything
To one boy who said he was mine
He said he'd hold me forever"
Now she's sitting on my floor
Pulling out her hair to ease
That she's not sleeping again
...

Antigone laid across the road And let a mack truck leave her there for dead Just because her lover split the scene Well love might be great but why lose your head

Well, it's laughter that comes up when I cry for you
And my heart may break again before it learns
And I might be stupid enough to want to fall again
Cause I've gotten use to the crash and burn
I say I've gotten use to the crash and burn
...

This song has been a favorite of mine for YEARS. How appropriate.

Stars - "Your Ex-Lover Is Dead"
God that was strange to see you again
Introduced by a friend of a friend
Smiled and said 'yes I think we've met before'
In that instant it started to pour,
Captured a taxi despite all the rain
We drove in silence across Pont Champlain
And all of the time you thought I was sad
I was trying to remember your name...

I'm not sorry there's nothing to save...

Which looks like it usually does when I get it colored and cut. lol But STILL.

And yes, I am aware that me smiling is quite frightening. lmao. =)

-"i get to say "sir" after everything i say to him. "stop it, sir! stop eating my shoe, sir! you're retarded, sir!" it makes it sound like i'm accosting some random man that i don't know."

-"TL;DR i had fun, ran my phone over, and was on tv all over US and canada doing retarded shit... as usual"

-"saturday at work, when i was just sitting there in the 105 degree sun minding my own pathetic business, doc ran over to me and started screaming about a dead groundhog. just another day at the the office, right?!"

-"the monkey has ceased his once incessant sexual propositions"

-"i also remember an outdated video circa the 1970s wherein a dumbass little bitch cocks her dumbass little bitch head affectedly and slowly and deliberately ponders, "but, mrs. whatsherfuck! will we still be able to come to school when we're menstruating?!?!?!!?!?" to which mrs. whatsherfuck replies, with a swish of her 70s hairpiece, "of course, cindy, you ignorant little wench! having a period doesn't stop girls from going to school or work, or continuing with their everyday lives! HAHAHAHAHAHAA!"

-"i begrudgingly pulled on my booty shorts, slapped some sun tan lotion on my obscenely exposed ass cheeks and headed out the door"

-"...pandora's box is filled with fake toenails?"

-"every time they accidentally show the pokemon center on the today show i crap myself"

-"i just shut my nipple in my laptop when i turned it off and closed it... then i turned it back on to tweet about it"

You can all follow Jo on twitter: http://twitter.com/lionbones
Jo is my female soul mate that I can never be with. Instead I will day dream longingly of her curly red crazy hair and clever, insane comments.

my bestie is going to help me get this blog off of Dennis's shit.
as soon as he stops being sick and busy

in other news, I am apparently meeting with a judge thursday to discuss the divorce and find out what the hell I am supposed to do.
Apparently people expect me to magically know? IVE NEVER DONE THIS BEFORE, PEOPLE.
And I have to get money from my mom&dad to do this. Which makes me feel like a horrible person.

But people-- my entire family wants me divorced from him just as badly as he and his friends want us divorced.
Dont WORRY, it will get done. And soon, I hope. I'm wanting this just as bad as everybody else.

AND GUYS HERES A LITTLE NOTE:

Haters be creepin', yo.

Well, a few weeks ago I did something that made me very happy.

1. I need a haircut.
2. My brother got his hair cut, and also picked up his schedule for this next year of school today.
3. I like watching The Weather Channel. A lot.
4. I can't trust anybody anymore, and that's okay. I have so few friends in the first place that cutting a few more out won't be too terribly hard to adjust to.
5. I can't wait until I can't find a clever way to announce what's going on in my life. But it has to wait just a while longer.
6. I need to pick out a few types of cars I am interested in.
7. I gotta stop chewing on my bottom lip and inside of my mouth. Anxiety sucks.
8. I got a free box of tampons in the mail today. Awesome.
9. Things need to hurry up and happen so I can get on with my life plans.
10. I added some quotes to the misc quotes section.

Girl, Interrupted Quotes
These are from the book, not the movie. Just in case those who've watched the movie are confused by the fact that they're not in the actual movie. =P

PS:

omfgitstabitha (3:53:20 PM): you know what i hate?
omfgitstabitha (3:53:38 PM): mother fuckin roll-on deoderant, or any kind of gel deodorant
omfgitstabitha (3:53:45 PM): they don't DRY in the south because it's so humid
omfgitstabitha (3:53:57 PM): i have to use the solid kind because of that

And no, I have nothing else to report at the moment.
Enjoy this bit of Alabama wisdom, guys.

So I'm digging through my boxes of stuff today, and what do I find? TA-DA.

So here's today's little meditation, if you will:

July 24: "Women have felt the need to pretend to be happy in order to be feminine." --Gloria Steinem

Responsible people do what they have to do. Figuring out what we have to do, unfortunately, is a lot harder than it looks. How many "shoulds" should we listen to? How many are true? Should we really behave, think, and feel differently than we do? Who says so?
Those of us who are females with families have been held responsible for too many "shoulds." In our efforts to be everything to everybody, we've too often become nobody to ourselves-- always standing at the end of the line when wants and needs being addressed. Obviously this doesn't do a lot for our self-esteem. What's even worse is the popular culture's insistence that we should be happy about it.
But unrealistic ideals are not healthy. no one should be bullied into pretending happiness-- or accepting responsibility for other people's happiness. Because the goal itself is false, pursuing that goal diminishes self-esteem.
In general, pretending is of little use in building a better, happier life. Pretending that is grounded in delusion and denial is not true femininity or true anything else that has any value.
I am free to choose my own goals and the means of achieving them.

I was told I had to write a blog entry, so here it is. Haha

I guess you never know what you really want until something really life changing presents itself.

Pregnancy, even the possibility of it, changes everything.

I don't know how long it will take for me to find someone to start a family with whom I get along with, but I guess that's fine. I will just live my life. Things tend to happen when you're not looking for it. Proven fact.

So maybe the person I need will show up randomly in the future. If not that's fine. I'll be okay.

The most important thing anybody can ever do is the things that they think will make them happy.
So that's what I did.
There isn't much else to say.

Once I get a job I will start looking for apartments. =P
That will be super fun, no? Having a place to live that is more than a bedroom and isn't a house full of people who come and go all hours of the night will be awesome. Plus there will be significantly less DISHES TO WASH.
Haha.

My cat missed me. He's been all clingy since I got back. So cute.

I'm about to run to the store for shampoo and conditioner, since I didn't have room to pack that stuff and I'm always afraid it will explode somehow.

Catching up with some friends has been fun the past day or so.
Yesterday felt like two days worth of time because I stayed up really late last night talking. There's this one person I just can't, for the life of me, stop talking to... I don't think I've ever had a better friend than this person. It's refreshing for someone to actually check on me and see how I'm doing multiple times a day. That's what I've needed, someone who actually talks to me. It feels like something inside is coming back to life now that I have people I talk to regularly. Getting ignored 99% of the day is kind of a daunting feeling.

ANYWAYS. TO THE STORE! I guess my brother will have to drive me lol

I'm moving to Alabama in a less than a week. It could been two days or, 5 days or whatever. I don't know. There is a lot of crazy shit going down here at Posi, and I don't even want to get started talking about it because it will just piss me off even more. I just want to go home to Alabama where I know I will be taken care of.

I have a lot of thinking to do. I'm not sure what's going to happen in the next few months... I just hope everyone comes out of this with a better perspective on life.

ANYWAYS, in my boredom I am going to browse tumblr, so expect new stuff on the "Tabs Loves It" Page, since that's where that shiz is from.

So... we got back around 8 or 9 Monday. The drive was okay, I guess. Other than the 2 hours we spent in a traffic jam on the interstate because a tractor trailer turned over. We moved 8 miles in those 2 hours, pretty much. Yikes.
It was so bad that I had to pee... and there was no exits, no stores, no houses. nothing. We pulled off on the side of the road and the car blocked me while I pissed on the side of the road. There was literally no other option at that point. I had to pee so bad I was in pain.

I started driving after we got dinner/breakfast at an Omelet Shoppe around 3am. And I drove until the sun came up and then some. I drove for as long as I could but eventually I knew that it would be dangerous if I didn't pull off to rest, so I stopped at the first place I found, which was a McDonalds. Haha. We must have been a sight: two kids sleeping in their cars in a parking lot. Keep in mind that when I was driving, Dennis was asleep, so I was kind of left up to my own ideas. haha.... Because, now that I think of it, McDonalds wasn't the best place to stop and SLEEP. But it ended up being alright because I only slept for three hours or so, and then I woke up, changed t-shirts so I felt more clean, and started driving again around 8am or something. I drove until 10 am I think, I'm not sure. Dennis eventually woke up and took back over. We have noticed a humming noise while driving the T-bird. Something is wrong with it, but we aren't suer what it is. It's very unsettling, and Dennis is worrying about it a lot. We aren't sure what we're gonna do in the way of cars because we have got to find a way to get everything taken care of and we need working vehicles, so hopefully this is something simple or something that we don't even have to really work on in the first place. I don't know.

We went back to Centralia, Pennsylvania. Dennis got a ton of pictures this time. Went spent quite a while just roaming around the ghost town taking pictures before we decided to leave... we were hungry and hadn't eaten since 8am. and it was around 4pm before we got another meal. There just wasn't anywhere we wanted to eat coming up on the interstate exit signs. But we eventually stopped somewhere in New York state and ate at an IHOP. After that we headed straight back to Holyoke, if I remember correctly.

Since we've been here it's been HOT AS HELL. Just like it was in Alabama. D= I am so so so hot and sweaty this year. I think there is something wrong with me. I have never sweat-ed this much before in my entire LIFE.

In the coming month we will be returning to Alabama, with James's truck and trailer to take our stuff down there. Dennis will come back up here with James and they will fly out to Seattle for that job over there, mean while I will be at home looking for a job and/or scoping out trailers. We are really excited about this... We have so many ideas and plans and wants for our own place. Most of them are stuff Dennis will have to build, like decks and porches and such.a

And for the record guys, I am not pregnant, In case you hadn't heard already. I am, however, convinced my hormones are messed up. There is no reason I should be feeling the way I feel lately. It's ridiculous.
Anyways, Dennis and I got kind of attached to the idea of having a baby while all this was happening the past week or so. So... We are planning to conceive sometime next year... and hopefully have a baby in 2012. However, if it accidentally (by the will of God, perhaps) happens before then, we will be just as happy to have our little darling sooner.

So that's that. I will keep everybody posted on how the packing and moving is going. And then Dennis and James's little trip and job in Seattle. So exciting to finally be getting a place of my own eventually. I mean, it won't be immediately, by any means. It will take months. But just being home is a blessing in and of itself, even if it is a million and one degrees outside. =P

It's monday, and we're in Griffin, GA at Dennis's Grandpa's house. The house is absolutely lovely, if I havent already mentioned it. I will probably take some pictures and upload them eventually. I have TONS to pics I've taken the past few days, but I can't get around to uploading them until I get back to Holyoke, MA with their super fast internet connection. lol.

So last I updated it was thursday night, and I had just gotten home from my dinner date with Kate and Lauren. =)

On friday my entire family went out to Oyster Bay in Tuscaloosa. It's this totally awesome seafood buffett. And the food is actually worth eating, unlike most buffetts. I have a video of my dad playing with a crawldaddy, haha. So yet again, when I get my good internet connection I will upload that for everyone's enjoyment.
The dinner was the first time my entire family got to go out to eat the while time we were on vacation. And it was also mine and Dennis's 3 month anniversary. =D
After dinner we went BOWLING. Dennis had never been bowling before, so it was pretty freaking cool. At 9 pm they turned on the blacklights and stuff in the bowling alley, so everybody was glowing. I really don't like bowling, and I hadn't been since I was kid. And I am probably even worse now than I was back then, if that's even believable. The first set I bowled a 30. A FUCKING 30. How is that even possible? lmao. Seriously.

On saturday Dennis and I should have been packing and such, but I slept WAYYY too much and didn't get anything done. And neither did Dennis, so we were up until atleast midnight saturday night trying to get everything set for when we left Sunday. And because of THAT, we slept until like, 10:30am on sunday. When we had originally planned on waking up at the butt crack of dawn and getting on the road. It's a good thing that we didn't though because his grandfather ended up not being home until later that night.

And by the way guys, the heat down here is un-fucking-real. Like, unbearable. I keep getting these weird hot flashes, and not just when I'm outside in the heat, but when I'm inside in the air conditioner, too. But when it does happen while we're outside I literally end up soaked through and through with sweat. My hair gets so wet that it looks like I just got out of the shower. And then I get really shaky and weak and nauseated and have to lay down. It's one of the worst feelings ever. Another thing going on with my lately is my anxiety is absolutely unreal. Like, it's unmanagable. I can't go to stores without flipping out the whole time I'm there. It's really embarassing.

So anyways, we drove to Griffin and almost died from heat exhaustion the whole way. We got here around 8pm last night and were took tired to do anything at all, so we just had them go get a pizza or two for us. I was so hot and sick feeling that I could only eat one piece. And I went to bed at like.. 9pm, woke up in the middle of the night with severe stomach pains and ended up on the toilet for 30 mins. I then slept until 11am or so. The heat is really getting to me, I'm so tired and weak. Dennis thinks I'm getting dehydrated over and over again. I don't even know, I mean, I guess it's possible but the thought of having to drink powerade or gatorade everyday like Dennis does makes me mad. I don't want all those extra calories.

Today we had a few plans and ideas that his grandfather wanted us to do, but things just didn't even get decided on and now we are laying down for a late nap after dinner. Or, well, Dennis is. I am sitting here fighting my sleep, trying not to nod off so I can write this entry and upload the pictures from my cell phone in a few minutes.

Tomorrow, on tuesday, we are leaving here and heading to Augusta, GA to stay with D's grandmother, Betty, and her husband Ralph. Hopefully I will have somehow adjusted to the heat before then because I really don't wanna be all gross and weird and hot the whole time I'm there. It would just seem really rude and odd, and I feel horrible because I've been acting so weird cause I can't stop sweating and I keep having to lay down and rest all the time.

So today I fiiiiiinally got to see some people from highschool. YESSS. I got to see Kate Greene Wilcoxen and Lauren Long! We ate at Olive Garden (or they did, haha, I was too busy TALKING so I took my food home in a to-go box. Which I devoured as soon as Kate left after dropping me off a few hours ago.) I really adore Lauren, and I am a bit mad at myself for not being closer friends with her when we were younger. We all should have talked more, in general. Anyways, it was awesome and I plan to get back in touch with her more often, and even talk to more people from NHS. I'm a different person, a lot of things have happened. And I want to apologize for some things I have done and said to some of these lovely ladies I went to school with. I didn't get around to it tonight, but if I remember correctly the two or three people I really need to apologize to are Jill, Rhysie, and Holly. So someday I will suck it up and make myself do it, because it has been on my conscious for years now. And it makes me loathe myself. =/ ANYWAYS....
After dinner Kate took me to Barnes and Nobel, and I got some books. That I shouldn't have gotten. Oops. Haha. Kate got some coffee, and then she drove me to my house. She came in with the intention of just saying hi to my parents, but she ended up staying a while. We looked at old pictures of our high school band shenanigans. Oh to be young and able to go to honor bands again. I miss playing so much new music with new conductors. I really liked the experience of being directed by so many different people from all over the world, and also playing so much music. I wish I could play in a group again, playing by yourself just isn't as much fun as making music with a group of people, you know? Kate and I also talk about body image issues and such, I told her and Lauren some very private, soul bearing things. But I trust them. I really do. And sometimes it just feels so much better to come out and say things rather than hide them, and that's what eating disorders tend to be about anyways... secrets and hiding things. So NONE OF THAT. =P

Lots of stuff is happening shortly. Tomorrow is mine and Dennis's 3 month anniversary of being married. =P My dad is off work, so Dennis and dad will be on the roof putting up more metal roof, and in the late afternoon they are going to stop and clean up and we are all going to town to have dinner as a family. We haven't had a chance to all eat out at once together since we got here because one of us is always busy and can't be there, so this is special. My parents have always made sure that my brother and I know the importance of sit down family meals, or at least having everybody present often enough. Keeps the family together better, I think.

Saturday Dennis and I have to pack things up.... I don't wanna goooo. But we have to. Sunday we leave as early as possible for Griffin, GA. We're going to stay with his grandfather for two days or so, and then head over to Augusta, GA to see Grandma Betty and Ralph. I'm super excited about seeing them again. I actually feel comfortable with them for the most part, which is saying a lot for me, because I have really bad anxiety.... ESPECIALLY when meeting other people's family!!! And considering how much of Dennis's family thinks I am crazy, stupid, an idiot, and the "biggest mistake Dennis ever made"... yeah. I don't even know.
All I can do is just be myself, keep taking care of Dennis and loving him and being as open and friendly as I can with everyone who will have anything to do with me. I can't change what people think, all I can do is just do the best that I can, the best that I know how. My momma raised me to as much of a lady as I could be... and I know I'm not that great, but I do try. =/

AND SO, we will be back in Holyoke... in time to go to Rebecca and Patricia's high school graduation, though we've heard that Patricia doesn't intend to walk. Which I kind of understand, it's just a ceremonial type thing. And in the grand scheme of things, it doesn't really mean anything whether you do it or not, you still got it done. I am excited, though, about the possibility of seeing Rebecca again. I can't lie, I adore her. She is awesome and adorable and funny and quite talented in clothing design. I hope she gets to follow her dreams and pursue that path in her life.

SO ANYWAY. I got two new books. And a replacement copy of Madness: A Bipolar Life.
One of the books is Gaining: The Truth About Life After Eating Disorders,
and the other is Unquiet Mind.
I also need to get on reading Snuff by Palahniuk, so that I can then read Pygmy and then purchase Tell All.

I got a new cell phoneeeee, since I sat my fat butt down on mine. Haha. I got a Samsung Flight. And a super cool, totally me cover case for it. So that wraps up this entry. This was a loooong one. haha.

I hate to say it, but the whole ordeal just didn't go as well as I wanted it to. It was fun, no doubt. Sure. But My Aunt Karen needs to get a hold of herself or straighten herself out or something, and now there's quite a FEW people who know it, too. Not just those select few. I love her to death, but I just don't know. Something isn't right, there's something very sad inside her heart that is making her do these things, and I know it must be... because I can't imagine her behaving like this if it wasn't for some other reason that she was just trying to distract herself or cover up feelings or thoughts or something.
I know people do that kind of thing all the time, hell, I used to do it too. It's not healthy. At all. And it hurts everyone around you.

Anyways. I will be sending all my positive hopeful thoughts towards this situation in hopes that something good will happen and maybe things will turn around.

The swimming pool was FREEZING COLD. At least in my opinion it was. D= Dennis threw me in and water went up my nose. =( And after that we goofed around, hitting beach balls around the pool, playing our little Reynolds' version of volleyball that we like to call "retard ball" .... pretty much just hit the damn ball any way you can with any body part you can and keep it going, but don't knock it out of the pool/off the deck.

We didn't have enough people to have a really good game of it going, haha. Not that there's really any game or score that can be kept when we do it. It's just fun stuff.

There was grilled hamburgers and hot dogs, desserts, beer, swimming, tanning. You know, the usual. But for some reason the fact that my Aunt Karen was drunk and often time said things to me that kind of hurt my feelings... well, it just ruined the whole ordeal for me.
I slept through most everything else after all that. I don't even know what or why. I was tired. Swimming always makes me sleepy, but this was strange. I also had sleep paralysis and night tremors and sweats and such. It's not fun. I hate these things, but it's becoming an almost nightly thing now, so I just have to deal with it, I guess.

On the way back home we stopped at a flea market. And it was AWESOME. I love those places. I didn't wanna leave. I wish we could have went to Tannehill on one of the weekends that place is open... That's my FAVORITE place to go.

I have a bunch of stuff I need to pack up and mail to Erica at her NEW HOME! WITH MOIPH. KREEBBYMOIPH IS ALIVEEEEEE. ahaha. I'm so excited for her. I hope Dennis and I can get a place too so we can have the joy of nesting and picking out furniture and stuff... that will be the best days... ever. omg. Like seriously, I have been looking forward to it since... well, since I know it was gonna be me and Capn for ever. And well, that's been a while now, right? a LOOOONG while.

Soooo... We will be leaving for Dennis's Mother's Dad's house on June 13th. They're in Griffin, GA. So we are running out of time here in lil ole Alabama. On Thursday night I am going to go to dinner with Kate and Lauren Long, I think. =) That's going to be super exciting. I can't wait.
Also, I am getting a replacement phone for the phone I broke. It's gonna cost my parents $50 but since every other phone we use for a back up phone is complete shit... we have no choice in the matter really. So that should be coming in the mail soon.

Dennis and I went to Fayette and Stayed with PawPaw over night last night. It was fun. We saw a friend of mine that I used to work with, and did a tiny bit of shopping. Then we went by where I used to work so I could talk to Lesley, and while I was there, one of the guys who works there asked Lesley if I was pregnant.
I'm sure some of you know already how I responded to this whole ordeal. But It was not pretty.
I am now wanting to lose weight. Again I don't even know. Whatever. I just must be so fat that I look pregnant. OR SOMETHING. D=
I got a lot of responses full of support and offers to talk and phone numbers on facebook, and three of those were from people I completely did not expect to even be really paying attention to little old me and my facebook status updates. haha. So that was a surprise. I am thankful for the support, I am going to try and not relapse. It would break Dennis's heart to see me back where I was before I went into "treatment."

ANYWAYS ENOUGH OF THAT CRAPPP.

Tomorrow we are waking up and going to the THRIFT STORE! AWESOME!!!!
And then heading to my Aunt Pam's house to spend the weekend with her. She has a swimming pool so I can SUPER EXCITED. I haven't went swimming in a really long time. =)
I also hope I can get a little bit of color in my skin cause I am as pale as a ghost!

I NEED TO PLAY POKEMON MORE. The ZI Pokemon Challenge is like.. um, now? or something.

Welllll I better stop typing now, my Hubby is laying in bed watching me and waiting for me to get off the computer and lay down with him. So cute. =)

PS: The picture is a random pic of the corkboard on my bedroom wall, haha. There used to be more stuff on it, but I took it off when I moved and mom put it away... now it's back and will be used.

So on MONDAY, my PawPaw and NaNa came to my parents house and we grilled pork ribs. It was absolutely delicious. Everything that was cooked was the best ever.

Then late last night I finally colored my hair! OMG!!! It's so BLONDE. I love it. I should have been using Herbal Essences all along. I could never get my hair to take color before when I used the other stuff I'd tried, but this is awesome. Now I need to get my hair trimmed cause it's super long, and it's making me get all hot and stuff because it's so damn hot down here.

Anyways, today I stayed home with some lady issues. (don't ask...) and Dennis and mom went into town to get the car insurance stuff taken care of. They want to check the VIN number on Dennis's car, but other than that we are good to go. =) And it's going to be TONS CHEAPER DOWN HERE!!! YESYESYES.

While they were in townnnn... I texted LESLEY!!! And she had today off. So she drove all the way out to my parents house to see little old me. =D OMG I love Lesley. She is the BESTEST. I can't wait until I can see her on a regular basis again.

So anyways, here's a picture of my Lesley. =)

Tomorrow Dennis and I will go to Northport and get the VIN number verified and maybe go to a store or two, then come home. My dad and Dennis have absolutely got to get cracking on the metal roof stuff... cause we are running out of time in which Dennis will be here to help, and when I think of my dad on that roof by himself trying to do it all on his own, it scares the shit out of me. =( So they need to try and get it done before we leave out.

On THURSDAY we will go to Fayette and stay overnight up there somewhere and visit with Lesley and MawMaw and other people. =)

ALSO, today Dennis put the stickers and on our mailbox that has our address and our name. So there's a second mail box out next to my parents that says "20486" and "Wyman" on it.

And it still makes me smile and stop and sigh happily. My last name is Wyman.

It's like a dream. I never thought I'd find anyone who could complete me, but he does. I am so thankful I found him.

WELL ENOUGH MUSHY STUFF. Off to train my pokemon for the ZeldaInformer League Challenge. =D

We just got back from my uncle's lake house. The crawlfish boil last night was pretty awesome. There wasn't a band, though. But it was still fun. Lots of delicious food.
Dennis and my parents went out on the boat and fished yesterday. Dennis was all cute with his new straw hat and his new aviator sunglasses. Which I like to wear and be all adorable in. =)

Gordon and Dennis played a LOT of pool down in the "Man Cave" haha, which is just the lower part of the house. My Uncle has a really nice place out there, and now we are toying with the idea of (after Dennis and I get on our feet and have some money) going in half and half with my parents and buying a place on the lake, too. Just for weekends and holidays and such. That would be awesome. We also are toying with the idea of getting a swimming pool, since we've wanted one forever. Dennis wants one really bad. The up-keep on the damn things is so expensive though. So I don't know if we ever really will get one. ALSO, I GOT TO SEE APRIL'S BABY! She looks EXACTLY like April did when she was a baby! And she is ADORABLE. The happiest baby I've seen in a long time, and so precious. =)

Dennis has pretty much started letting people know he's moving down here. So the news is probably spreading to family that had no idea. I wonder what his dad will say. I mean, we don't have anywhere else to go. His dad hates us, all my family is down here. And because of money problems we gotta go somewhere until we can get on our feet. (and it might as well be Alabama, everything is so much more affordable down here.)

Tomorrow my PawPaw and Nana are coming to the house and we are grilling ribs. I am going to pick a bouquet of wildflowers for the table. =) I love doing this kind of thing.

Anyways if you click through to read the rest of the entry you can see the picture of my TWITTER T-SHIRT!

We're about to leave to go to Fayette and visit my grandparents.
So I have to make this short and sweet.
I got my name changed!!!! I am officially "Tabitha Leigh Reynolds Wyman"!!!
That's right, I got the WHOLE THING. Hahaha. Also, I couldn't get my driver's license renewed because it takes 24 hours for the social security place to put my new name in the system, and Dennis failed the eye test for his license transfer, so he has to go back and try again. He's probably gonna have to wear glasses while driving all the time now. He's really upset about it.

In OTHER NEWS, my dad and Dennis are working on putting the metal roof on my parents' house. You have no idea how scary it was to see them walking around on the roof. And even MORE scary when it was the metal roof they were walking on. They just kept sliding a little bit and it seemed like they might slide all the way off the roof, but they never did. Thank God!

So, I am trying to get a bunch of pictures uploaded to my summer trip facebook album, but our internet sucks down here, so I don't know when or if I'll ever get around to that, because I had like.. 30 pictures or more to upload, and they're HUGE. 1200 by 1600. And nothing to resize them efficiently. So boooo.

In the meantime, here's a pic or two that I'm uploading right now. The flower is a rose from my mother's rosebush. It's very pretty. =) And the other picture is of Dennis and Daddy, Dennis is nailing up the wood to hold the metal roof at the right place while they screw THAT into the roof. =P

Dennis and I left thursday morning at.... 8am? We didn't make it to Alabama until last night at 7:30pm. We ended up stopping at Centralia to sight see.
If you don't know about Centralia, here is a link to learn about it: Centralia, Pennsylvania on Wikipedia.org. Basically, it's a ghost town. There is a fire burning in the mines under the city, and has been for ages, and everybody who lived there had to leave. So naturally Dennis and I had to go check it out. It was absolutely creepy to see all these driveways and places where there should be houses and stuff and there was nothing there, just over grown grass, half dead trees, rubble and rocks. The picture is of the road that they had to close off completely because the fires underneath cracked the road open. If you place wood or trees stuff in the cracks it will smoulder and smoke and burn slowly just from the sheer heat underground, coming up through the cracks. It's wicked.

After that we drove until almost 11pm, and stopped in Virginia to sleep over night. Unfortunately, we didn't realize how cold it would get. And didn't have enough blankets. So we were very, very cold thursday night. Friday morning we got up and kept driving. We stopped quite a few times. But the best time absolutely HAD to be when we stopped and the squirrels at the rest area walked up to us and wanted us to feed them. It was so cuuuuute. So we gave them some Cheeze-its. And they sat there munching on them, it was awesome. And when we went to get back in the car, they followed us. I also got to experience the whole: "lets shave our legs in a rest area bathroom" thing. Haha. You would be surprised how well that foam hand soap works as shaving cream, lmao.

Soooo... we kept driving. and eventually made it home. So now we are trying to get back to a normal sleeping schedule. And for once, I'm the one who is having trouble with it. Dennis is already on one, but me? I've been staying up all night and sleeping all day. So today is my transition day, I gotta keep myself awake. So I will probably be finding all sorts of stuff to do.

Bad things keep happening over and over, you guys. It sucks. D=
Dennis's car is finally fixed, or was. Now there's either a blown circuit or messed up wiring in the dash and the entire dash and radio won't work. The car runs and everything but we can't see how much gas is in it, or how fast we're driving (though it doesn't start up as readily as it should, but it's not a battery or alternator issue. Nor does it seem to be the starter. We are just stumped. We need this car to keep itself together for a few more months at the VERY least). Knowing how fast you're driving isn't an issue for me, because when I DO drive I always drive rather slow. I'm a defensive driver, while Dennis is an offensive driver. I just kind of drive slow and let everybody go around me and yield to others all the time and such. Despite me having been in a wreck and having gotten one speeding ticket, I am really a pretty cautious driver. (though my friend James told me I am so cautious that it's almost having the opposite affect because I stall and hesitate, so boo... haha. I can't win, can I? =P )

So anyways, yesterday the office was swamped with angry customers yelling at us because their websites went down when a server transfer messed up. And so I got Dennis up only for us to discover that his data hard drive won't read itself. It's apparently not getting any power to it, and we have no idea if the data is still there. We're also not sure if there is going to be a way to get anything off of it without it being a complete and total pain in the ass.

The plan is to get two hard drives, with identical data on both. So if one goes, we have the back up. And won't have to lose all this stuff again. Dennis literally lost EVERYTHING. This is just... so shitty I can't explain with words how much it sucks. It's like, seriously? NOW THIS? ON TOP OF EVERYTHING?

Anyways, I called James and left him messages and finally got a hold of him and he came over here after only getting like.. 2 hours of sleep. Poor guy. But Dennis wouldn't have been able to fix it anywhere near as fast as James did. And James had to stay awtake all the rest of the day because he had a guitar gig that night and if he went back to sleep he'd never get up in time for it. So we went to his little park in front of Stop and Shop and played on the swings for almost an hour. And so I decided that I absolutely want a nice sturdy swing set when we move and get a place and have the money. I will probably tell everybody who asks about it that I got it because I thought I was going to have a kid or something, but REALLY it's just for me. Ahaha. =P I LOVE SWINGING ON SWINGSETS! It's relaxing and moving through the air cools you down when it's a little warm (I suppose it wouldn't help much if it was SUPER hot out, but lol) I also want to plant lots of flowers when I get home. There's these flowers up here at Posi. They're bulbs. I think they're Iris or something, I should look up pictures and see if that's what they are. They're so GORGEOUS!!! Like, honest to god, the most beautiful flowers I have ever seen. In my entire life. When James gets here I want to get him to take pictures of them so I can show you these particular ones. The coloring is breath-taking.

Dennis has like... 3 or 4 more hours of stuff to do at the Red Cross, and then he's done with that. And we are waiting for something to come in the mail from my mom, then all that's left is getting the dash of Dennis's car lighting up, packing our stuff, loading the car, and getting the hell out of dodge. Oh, and we need to withdraw everything out of the bank account, probably. I'm pretty sure that after $100 in fees and charges from Citizens Bank (most of which were because of their OWN mistakes, which is absolutely ridiculous and pisses me off to NO END)... we will be closing that account. Besides, we need to get our first joint bank account. =) That's so exciting to me. We're going to get it in Alabama, since we're moving his business location down there. And you know, probably... almost definitely moving down there later this year. I will get a paypal set up with that account so I can run my Amazon Associates thing through it (quick explanation: If anybody finds my site through googling quotes from books I love, and clicks through to Amazon from my site and ends up buying the book, I will get a cut of the revenue. I know it probably won't happen much, maybe like.. 2 times a year, if I'm lucky, but it's still cool. And who knows, maybe it will happen more often, and be a nice little surprise money)

Sooooooo. I've got a lot of stuff planned for our vacay in Alabama. We should be leaving by middle of next week, I hope. It's so soon! I'm so excited! I can't wait to see my mom! She needs a big hug and some relaxing girl time.
I think I'll make a list of stuff we need to do, if anybody's interested, I'll do that soon.

I have a little bit of stuff to scan and post up in the Misc. Section. Nothing too amazing though. OH, and the picture of me is courtesy of James's iphone. Since my phone is broke and we have no camera. =D The hat is Dennis's. And yes, I was modeling for the picture in the bathroom, lmao.

Well, I guess things went just about as badly as they could have today.
I won't go into details, it's kind of private. But oh well.

Dennis and I are going on vacation to Alabama earlier than expected. Probably middle of next week some time. I really want to be home right now, to support my family. Especially my mom. She needs me. I love her. I hope we all can get through this tough time.

I haven't scanned much art or done any writing lately. I'm just really... stressed and uninspired. As soon as I get back to Alabama I'll feel tons better. I just can't stop thinking about my family.

Right now Dennis is sleeping, and I'm watching Ray. The Ray Charles movie. I love this movie. The music is AWESOME. Love it love it love it.

I just ate a cold left over burrito. It was surprisingly delicious.

I guess I'm gonna go doodle. I need to relax and calm down after what happened today.

Hope everybody is having a good May so far. The weather has been windy and cold the past few days. Very depressing. Can't wait to get some Alabama sunshine. Get some color in my skin. I'm as pale as a ghost right now.

Until next time...

The weather has been super nice lately. I can't WAIT to get to Alabama and go swimming or layout or something later this month. I'm so excited!!!
Denise has started showing me stuff on QuickBooks, which is good. I'm slowly making sense of the huge mass of "OMG THIS IS CONFUSING" feeling I had yesterday.

Posi was pretty dead today, I'm sitting in the kitchen at the table eating some soup, watching a movie on the TV since the TV in mine and Dennis's bedroom is broken. It's an old TV, and it used to work if we banged on the top of it, but now it won't ever clear up. Soooo... this is the only way I can watch stuff now. But that's cool, since I have Dennis's old laptop and I don't mind sitting out in the kitchen now.

The movie I'm watching is "The Virgin Suicides". Cult classic. Oh, apparently this evening my favorite author, Chuck Palahniuk was in Boston, MA doing a signing on his tour for this new book "Tell All". I wish I had known ahead of time, and I wish mine or Dennis' car was operational so we could have met him. It would have been the chance of a lifetime too meet Palahniuk. D=
Oh welllllll.

Tonight Dennis is working on redoing his website: ZANGAROA ENTERPRISES, and updating it... to make it more user friendly, and easier to navigate. And changing the information provided to reflect the new business's address: 20486 Jimmy Lunceford Rd.
Just like the old address we used to have, but it will be just for Dennis's business and receiving mail and other such things.

Summer is here!!! Woohoo.
Alright, now that that's out of the way... the Positronic Design "Spring Into Summer" party is over, and aside from the drama I heard it was a good party. So now that I don't have to worry about the cleaning up for that constantly, I can think about other things that matter to me. Like playing clarinet, writing, and art. And LEARNING HOW TO USE QUICK BOOKS!
This week begins the intense training for learning how to do "the books" here at work, and I hope to God I can do this. If I can't, this might be a really big problem. D=

My parents are going to fill out the paper work to resurrect their old mailing address from back when we lived in a trailer, to use as the address for Dennis and me (and most importantly, his BUSINESS, Zangaroa Enterprises)
So yay for us, we will have an address in Alabama. And this also helps us get Alabama driver's licenses and moving all our cars registrations down there, and getting our insurance down there for the cars. We have to do this because right now it's still officially based at Dennis' dad's house, and that isn't something that we need to continue to do. And neither of our cars would pass all the inspections that Massachusetts does on cars, so we can't register them up here, that's for sure.

I've got some ideas and some things going on in my head, I can't exactly tell everybody just yet, but there are some huge things in the works for Dennis and I. Hopefully.

Anyways, later this month Dennis and I are going to Alabama to visit my family. I am so excited, plus we are going to hopefully go to my Uncle Everette's lake house for Memorial Day weekend and do their whole lake thing, which I haven't done. My parents have went, but I haven't, so I am REALLY excited. I hope I can lose enough weight to wear my swimming suit. Holy crap.

About the site: We're still tweaking it a tiny bit, but everything should be mostly operational at this point, which is why we are sending it live shortly after I publish this entry. The Misc Section has random doodles of mine from art journals or random notebooks, and will be something that I update a lot, so be sure to check that out. I also have a page called Tabitha Loves It, for the things I find on Tumblr.com and my Delicious bookmarks list. Also, as usual, my list of quotes is available... and I will be adding a section for misc quotes and other things soon. I am very excited to get this project underway.

ALSO, I am still writing a good bit. The writing can be found here: tabithawrites.blogspot.com. I will be posting some if not all of my "word omission poetry"/"blackout poetry" in the Misc Section AS WELL as on my writings blogspot page thing. So that's that.

IF ANY OF YOU WANT YOUR SITE TO BE LISTED ON MY FRIENDS PAGE SEND ME A MESSAGE OR LEAVE A COMMENT OR GET IN TOUCH WITH ME SOMEHOW.