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Among orange-tile rooftops
and chimney pots
the fen fog slips,
gray as rats,

while on spotted branch
of the sycamore
two black rooks hunch
and darkly glare,

watching for night,
with absinthe eye
cocked on the lone, late,
passer-by.

All day she plays at chess with the bones of the world:
Favored (while suddenly the rains begin
Beyond the window) she lies on cushions curled
And nibbles an occasional bonbon of sin.

Prim, pink-breasted, feminine, she nurses
Chocolate fancies in rose-papered rooms
Where polished highboys whisper creaking curses
And hothouse roses shed immoral blooms.

The garnets on her fingers twinkle quick
And blood reflects across the manuscript;
She muses on the odor, sweet and sick,
Of festering gardenias in a crypt,

And lost in subtle metaphor, retreats
From gray child faces crying on the streets.

We just got back from my uncle's lake house. The crawlfish boil last night was pretty awesome. There wasn't a band, though. But it was still fun. Lots of delicious food.
Dennis and my parents went out on the boat and fished yesterday. Dennis was all cute with his new straw hat and his new aviator sunglasses. Which I like to wear and be all adorable in. =)

Gordon and Dennis played a LOT of pool down in the "Man Cave" haha, which is just the lower part of the house. My Uncle has a really nice place out there, and now we are toying with the idea of (after Dennis and I get on our feet and have some money) going in half and half with my parents and buying a place on the lake, too. Just for weekends and holidays and such. That would be awesome. We also are toying with the idea of getting a swimming pool, since we've wanted one forever. Dennis wants one really bad. The up-keep on the damn things is so expensive though. So I don't know if we ever really will get one. ALSO, I GOT TO SEE APRIL'S BABY! She looks EXACTLY like April did when she was a baby! And she is ADORABLE. The happiest baby I've seen in a long time, and so precious. =)

Dennis has pretty much started letting people know he's moving down here. So the news is probably spreading to family that had no idea. I wonder what his dad will say. I mean, we don't have anywhere else to go. His dad hates us, all my family is down here. And because of money problems we gotta go somewhere until we can get on our feet. (and it might as well be Alabama, everything is so much more affordable down here.)

Tomorrow my PawPaw and Nana are coming to the house and we are grilling ribs. I am going to pick a bouquet of wildflowers for the table. =) I love doing this kind of thing.

Anyways if you click through to read the rest of the entry you can see the picture of my TWITTER T-SHIRT!

We're about to leave to go to Fayette and visit my grandparents.
So I have to make this short and sweet.
I got my name changed!!!! I am officially "Tabitha Leigh Reynolds Wyman"!!!
That's right, I got the WHOLE THING. Hahaha. Also, I couldn't get my driver's license renewed because it takes 24 hours for the social security place to put my new name in the system, and Dennis failed the eye test for his license transfer, so he has to go back and try again. He's probably gonna have to wear glasses while driving all the time now. He's really upset about it.

In OTHER NEWS, my dad and Dennis are working on putting the metal roof on my parents' house. You have no idea how scary it was to see them walking around on the roof. And even MORE scary when it was the metal roof they were walking on. They just kept sliding a little bit and it seemed like they might slide all the way off the roof, but they never did. Thank God!

So, I am trying to get a bunch of pictures uploaded to my summer trip facebook album, but our internet sucks down here, so I don't know when or if I'll ever get around to that, because I had like.. 30 pictures or more to upload, and they're HUGE. 1200 by 1600. And nothing to resize them efficiently. So boooo.

In the meantime, here's a pic or two that I'm uploading right now. The flower is a rose from my mother's rosebush. It's very pretty. =) And the other picture is of Dennis and Daddy, Dennis is nailing up the wood to hold the metal roof at the right place while they screw THAT into the roof. =P

Dennis and I left thursday morning at.... 8am? We didn't make it to Alabama until last night at 7:30pm. We ended up stopping at Centralia to sight see.
If you don't know about Centralia, here is a link to learn about it: Centralia, Pennsylvania on Wikipedia.org. Basically, it's a ghost town. There is a fire burning in the mines under the city, and has been for ages, and everybody who lived there had to leave. So naturally Dennis and I had to go check it out. It was absolutely creepy to see all these driveways and places where there should be houses and stuff and there was nothing there, just over grown grass, half dead trees, rubble and rocks. The picture is of the road that they had to close off completely because the fires underneath cracked the road open. If you place wood or trees stuff in the cracks it will smoulder and smoke and burn slowly just from the sheer heat underground, coming up through the cracks. It's wicked.

After that we drove until almost 11pm, and stopped in Virginia to sleep over night. Unfortunately, we didn't realize how cold it would get. And didn't have enough blankets. So we were very, very cold thursday night. Friday morning we got up and kept driving. We stopped quite a few times. But the best time absolutely HAD to be when we stopped and the squirrels at the rest area walked up to us and wanted us to feed them. It was so cuuuuute. So we gave them some Cheeze-its. And they sat there munching on them, it was awesome. And when we went to get back in the car, they followed us. I also got to experience the whole: "lets shave our legs in a rest area bathroom" thing. Haha. You would be surprised how well that foam hand soap works as shaving cream, lmao.

Soooo... we kept driving. and eventually made it home. So now we are trying to get back to a normal sleeping schedule. And for once, I'm the one who is having trouble with it. Dennis is already on one, but me? I've been staying up all night and sleeping all day. So today is my transition day, I gotta keep myself awake. So I will probably be finding all sorts of stuff to do.

Bad things keep happening over and over, you guys. It sucks. D=
Dennis's car is finally fixed, or was. Now there's either a blown circuit or messed up wiring in the dash and the entire dash and radio won't work. The car runs and everything but we can't see how much gas is in it, or how fast we're driving (though it doesn't start up as readily as it should, but it's not a battery or alternator issue. Nor does it seem to be the starter. We are just stumped. We need this car to keep itself together for a few more months at the VERY least). Knowing how fast you're driving isn't an issue for me, because when I DO drive I always drive rather slow. I'm a defensive driver, while Dennis is an offensive driver. I just kind of drive slow and let everybody go around me and yield to others all the time and such. Despite me having been in a wreck and having gotten one speeding ticket, I am really a pretty cautious driver. (though my friend James told me I am so cautious that it's almost having the opposite affect because I stall and hesitate, so boo... haha. I can't win, can I? =P )

So anyways, yesterday the office was swamped with angry customers yelling at us because their websites went down when a server transfer messed up. And so I got Dennis up only for us to discover that his data hard drive won't read itself. It's apparently not getting any power to it, and we have no idea if the data is still there. We're also not sure if there is going to be a way to get anything off of it without it being a complete and total pain in the ass.

The plan is to get two hard drives, with identical data on both. So if one goes, we have the back up. And won't have to lose all this stuff again. Dennis literally lost EVERYTHING. This is just... so shitty I can't explain with words how much it sucks. It's like, seriously? NOW THIS? ON TOP OF EVERYTHING?

Anyways, I called James and left him messages and finally got a hold of him and he came over here after only getting like.. 2 hours of sleep. Poor guy. But Dennis wouldn't have been able to fix it anywhere near as fast as James did. And James had to stay awtake all the rest of the day because he had a guitar gig that night and if he went back to sleep he'd never get up in time for it. So we went to his little park in front of Stop and Shop and played on the swings for almost an hour. And so I decided that I absolutely want a nice sturdy swing set when we move and get a place and have the money. I will probably tell everybody who asks about it that I got it because I thought I was going to have a kid or something, but REALLY it's just for me. Ahaha. =P I LOVE SWINGING ON SWINGSETS! It's relaxing and moving through the air cools you down when it's a little warm (I suppose it wouldn't help much if it was SUPER hot out, but lol) I also want to plant lots of flowers when I get home. There's these flowers up here at Posi. They're bulbs. I think they're Iris or something, I should look up pictures and see if that's what they are. They're so GORGEOUS!!! Like, honest to god, the most beautiful flowers I have ever seen. In my entire life. When James gets here I want to get him to take pictures of them so I can show you these particular ones. The coloring is breath-taking.

Dennis has like... 3 or 4 more hours of stuff to do at the Red Cross, and then he's done with that. And we are waiting for something to come in the mail from my mom, then all that's left is getting the dash of Dennis's car lighting up, packing our stuff, loading the car, and getting the hell out of dodge. Oh, and we need to withdraw everything out of the bank account, probably. I'm pretty sure that after $100 in fees and charges from Citizens Bank (most of which were because of their OWN mistakes, which is absolutely ridiculous and pisses me off to NO END)... we will be closing that account. Besides, we need to get our first joint bank account. =) That's so exciting to me. We're going to get it in Alabama, since we're moving his business location down there. And you know, probably... almost definitely moving down there later this year. I will get a paypal set up with that account so I can run my Amazon Associates thing through it (quick explanation: If anybody finds my site through googling quotes from books I love, and clicks through to Amazon from my site and ends up buying the book, I will get a cut of the revenue. I know it probably won't happen much, maybe like.. 2 times a year, if I'm lucky, but it's still cool. And who knows, maybe it will happen more often, and be a nice little surprise money)

Sooooooo. I've got a lot of stuff planned for our vacay in Alabama. We should be leaving by middle of next week, I hope. It's so soon! I'm so excited! I can't wait to see my mom! She needs a big hug and some relaxing girl time.
I think I'll make a list of stuff we need to do, if anybody's interested, I'll do that soon.

I have a little bit of stuff to scan and post up in the Misc. Section. Nothing too amazing though. OH, and the picture of me is courtesy of James's iphone. Since my phone is broke and we have no camera. =D The hat is Dennis's. And yes, I was modeling for the picture in the bathroom, lmao.

Well, I guess things went just about as badly as they could have today.
I won't go into details, it's kind of private. But oh well.

Dennis and I are going on vacation to Alabama earlier than expected. Probably middle of next week some time. I really want to be home right now, to support my family. Especially my mom. She needs me. I love her. I hope we all can get through this tough time.

I haven't scanned much art or done any writing lately. I'm just really... stressed and uninspired. As soon as I get back to Alabama I'll feel tons better. I just can't stop thinking about my family.

Right now Dennis is sleeping, and I'm watching Ray. The Ray Charles movie. I love this movie. The music is AWESOME. Love it love it love it.

I just ate a cold left over burrito. It was surprisingly delicious.

I guess I'm gonna go doodle. I need to relax and calm down after what happened today.

Hope everybody is having a good May so far. The weather has been windy and cold the past few days. Very depressing. Can't wait to get some Alabama sunshine. Get some color in my skin. I'm as pale as a ghost right now.

Until next time...

The weather has been super nice lately. I can't WAIT to get to Alabama and go swimming or layout or something later this month. I'm so excited!!!
Denise has started showing me stuff on QuickBooks, which is good. I'm slowly making sense of the huge mass of "OMG THIS IS CONFUSING" feeling I had yesterday.

Posi was pretty dead today, I'm sitting in the kitchen at the table eating some soup, watching a movie on the TV since the TV in mine and Dennis's bedroom is broken. It's an old TV, and it used to work if we banged on the top of it, but now it won't ever clear up. Soooo... this is the only way I can watch stuff now. But that's cool, since I have Dennis's old laptop and I don't mind sitting out in the kitchen now.

The movie I'm watching is "The Virgin Suicides". Cult classic. Oh, apparently this evening my favorite author, Chuck Palahniuk was in Boston, MA doing a signing on his tour for this new book "Tell All". I wish I had known ahead of time, and I wish mine or Dennis' car was operational so we could have met him. It would have been the chance of a lifetime too meet Palahniuk. D=
Oh welllllll.

Tonight Dennis is working on redoing his website: ZANGAROA ENTERPRISES, and updating it... to make it more user friendly, and easier to navigate. And changing the information provided to reflect the new business's address: 20486 Jimmy Lunceford Rd.
Just like the old address we used to have, but it will be just for Dennis's business and receiving mail and other such things.

live with intention.
walk to the edge.
listen hard.
practice wellness.
play with abandon.
laugh.
choose with no regrets.
continue to learn.
appreciate your friends.
do what you love.
live as if this is all there is.

-Mary Anne Radmacher

Better that every fiber crack
and fury make head,
blood drenching vivid
couch, carpet, floor
and the snake-figured almanac
vouching you are
a million green counties from here,

than to sit mute, twitching so
under prickling stars,
with stare, with curse
blackening the time
goodbyes were said, trains let go,
and I, great magnanimous fool, thus wrenched from
my one kingdom.