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omfgitstabitha (6:41:53 PM): he's gonna end up in a van down by the river eating cats and dogs for dinner
omfgitstabitha (6:42:03 PM): I THINK I MADE A RHYME
zreofiregs (6:43:06 PM): ...
zreofiregs (6:43:09 PM): wow tab
omfgitstabitha (6:43:19 PM): SHHH
omfgitstabitha (6:43:26 PM): you are impressed with my witty comments
omfgitstabitha (6:43:28 PM): don't lie
omfgitstabitha (6:43:51 PM): also, i think every chinese place uses cat instead of chicken D=
omfgitstabitha (6:43:58 PM): i used to be like "NO WAY"
omfgitstabitha (6:44:12 PM): but there's this one place in fayette where all the stray cats mysteriously go missing...
zreofiregs (6:44:33 PM): ....................
zreofiregs (6:44:34 PM): LOL
zreofiregs (6:44:47 PM): know what?
zreofiregs (6:44:50 PM): youre fucking weird.
omfgitstabitha (6:44:54 PM): no
omfgitstabitha (6:45:05 PM): the weird part is WE NEVER EVEN KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN CHICKEN AND CAT
omfgitstabitha (6:45:17 PM): because it's smothered in delicious grease and rice
omfgitstabitha (6:45:26 PM): i just had chinese for dinner btw
zreofiregs (6:45:27 PM): no.. no no.. like.. youre just fucking WEIRD..... ya know that?
omfgitstabitha (6:45:29 PM): ....
zreofiregs (6:45:33 PM): LOL
zreofiregs (6:45:34 PM): :-P
zreofiregs (6:45:39 PM): I love that about you
zreofiregs (6:45:43 PM): i love you tab
zreofiregs (6:45:45 PM): marry me
omfgitstabitha (6:45:53 PM): IM STILL MARRIED RIGHT NOW, SORRY
zreofiregs (6:46:01 PM): BAHAHA
zreofiregs (6:46:05 PM): erm
zreofiregs (6:46:05 PM): >_>

zreofiregs (7:00:04 PM): http://i.imgur.com/RK7vI.gif I love this.
omfgitstabitha (7:00:33 PM): omg tits
omfgitstabitha (7:00:56 PM): i am just sitting here staring at tits
omfgitstabitha (7:01:01 PM): it's hypnotic
zreofiregs (7:01:07 PM): i know..
zreofiregs (7:01:13 PM): i stare at yours, too
omfgitstabitha (7:01:19 PM): D=
zreofiregs (7:01:27 PM): can you blame me?
omfgitstabitha (7:01:42 PM): Have you just been saving up all these sexual things and waiting for me to leave Dennis so you can tell them to me? lmao
zreofiregs (7:01:50 PM): yes.
zreofiregs (7:01:56 PM): ive waited every single fucking day
zreofiregs (7:02:03 PM): and threw a party when i heard the news
omfgitstabitha (7:03:41 PM): i just tweeted that
omfgitstabitha (7:03:42 PM): >.>
omfgitstabitha (7:04:01 PM): AND NOW IM DELETING HALF OF IT
zreofiregs (7:04:12 PM): xD
omfgitstabitha (7:04:17 PM): sry sam i am in love with Jo
zreofiregs (7:04:18 PM): Fire: "yes. ive waited every single fucking day and threw a party when i heard the news" omg sam is evil
omfgitstabitha (7:04:21 PM): she is sexy cute
zreofiregs (7:04:26 PM): whos Jo?
omfgitstabitha (7:04:30 PM): a friend of mine
omfgitstabitha (7:04:31 PM): =D
zreofiregs (7:04:35 PM): pix?

omfgitstabitha (7:04:47 PM): she is good fun
omfgitstabitha (7:05:28 PM): she found me on livejournal
zreofiregs (7:05:32 PM): :-(
omfgitstabitha (7:05:40 PM): by searching for people who listed HTLOZ as an interest
omfgitstabitha (7:05:41 PM): lol
omfgitstabitha (7:05:48 PM): she never went there though
omfgitstabitha (7:05:54 PM): her brother did at one point
zreofiregs (7:05:58 PM): lol
omfgitstabitha (7:05:58 PM): SHE LIVES IN PA
omfgitstabitha (7:06:00 PM): REMEMBER
zreofiregs (7:06:13 PM): west pa
omfgitstabitha (7:06:30 PM): she has the makings of one of those girls online who have tons of male fans
omfgitstabitha (7:06:41 PM): she used to play with chatroulette every night
omfgitstabitha (7:06:44 PM): she is weird
zreofiregs (7:06:45 PM): xD
omfgitstabitha (7:06:46 PM): i love her

omfgitstabitha (7:07:57 PM): STOP TRYING TO TURN ME ON WITH PORN
omfgitstabitha (7:08:05 PM): i already used my showerhead once today
omfgitstabitha (7:08:14 PM): i can't get away with taking two showers in one day
zreofiregs (7:08:17 PM): oh dman, i remember you got that while we dated
omfgitstabitha (7:08:22 PM): my parents will get suspicious
omfgitstabitha (7:09:17 PM): you shouldn't be so creepy, i will have to tell my manfriendthing
omfgitstabitha (7:09:21 PM): he will send a hit man
omfgitstabitha (7:09:23 PM): and
omfgitstabitha (7:09:25 PM): stuff
zreofiregs (7:09:29 PM): sure
zreofiregs (7:09:30 PM): anyway
omfgitstabitha (7:10:18 PM): >.>
omfgitstabitha (7:10:24 PM): i have to go do womanly things
omfgitstabitha (7:10:27 PM): like wash dishes
omfgitstabitha (7:10:28 PM): and such
zreofiregs (7:10:32 PM): ....masterbate?
omfgitstabitha (7:10:36 PM): by wash dishes i mean touch my vagina
zreofiregs (7:10:36 PM): we can do it at the same time
zreofiregs (7:10:40 PM): it'll be fun :-)
omfgitstabitha (7:10:42 PM): NO
zreofiregs (7:10:45 PM): well
zreofiregs (7:10:48 PM): im about to do it
zreofiregs (7:10:49 PM): so
zreofiregs (7:10:51 PM): we will be
zreofiregs (7:10:54 PM): REGARDLESS
omfgitstabitha (7:10:54 PM): EWWWIES
zreofiregs (7:10:56 PM): :-D

zreofiregs (8:08:12 PM): and if my dick were out and around your general area, youd want to go to town on it - i know
omfgitstabitha (8:08:26 PM): it's because you're italian
zreofiregs (8:08:38 PM): ;-)
omfgitstabitha (8:08:40 PM): no really
omfgitstabitha (8:08:45 PM): i love italian men
omfgitstabitha (8:08:54 PM): well.....
zreofiregs (8:08:55 PM): i know
zreofiregs (8:08:58 PM): were hard to pass up

zreofiregs (8:09:19 PM): thats what I am
zreofiregs (8:09:20 PM): :-P
omfgitstabitha (8:09:22 PM): god damn you
zreofiregs (8:09:29 PM): thats why my dad has curly nigger hair
omfgitstabitha (8:09:34 PM): ahahaha
omfgitstabitha (8:09:55 PM): oh god
omfgitstabitha (8:09:57 PM): this is random
omfgitstabitha (8:10:00 PM): but let me tell you something
zreofiregs (8:10:09 PM): k
omfgitstabitha (8:10:10 PM): everytime i look at my little brother, all i can see is Tempest
omfgitstabitha (8:10:14 PM): and i gag and vomit in my mouth
omfgitstabitha (8:10:17 PM): no joke
omfgitstabitha (8:10:23 PM): WHY DOES MY FAMILY HAVE TO HAVE RED HAIR
zreofiregs (8:10:40 PM): Seriously, i thought the SAME THING
omfgitstabitha (8:10:40 PM): he's even a depressed little angsty fuck like tempest
zreofiregs (8:10:47 PM): LOLOLOL
omfgitstabitha (8:11:08 PM): THAT COMMENT IS OFF THE RECORD
omfgitstabitha (8:11:13 PM): .... no it's not.
omfgitstabitha (8:11:17 PM): POST THAT SHIT ON TWITTER YO
omfgitstabitha (8:11:28 PM): OMG IM JOKING DONT
omfgitstabitha (8:11:39 PM): i need to chatquote this entire conversation somewhere but i have nowhere i can do it
omfgitstabitha (8:11:39 PM): lol
zreofiregs (8:11:58 PM): LOL
zreofiregs (8:11:59 PM): xDD
omfgitstabitha (8:13:38 PM): fuck it i'm making a new catagory in movabletype for my conversation quotes
zreofiregs (8:13:44 PM): LOL
omfgitstabitha (8:14:13 PM): oh shit i already had one!
omfgitstabitha (8:14:15 PM): fuck yeah

Well, a few weeks ago I did something that made me very happy.

I'm finding solace in places filled with books.
The shelves filled with unread stories beckon and call to my mind.
The urge to pull one from a shelf and take a dip into a new fantasy world is almost unbearable.
But my tendency to get carried away and forget reality is my reminder that I should probably just play it safe... For now.

(Random notes at Tuscaloosa's Barnes and Noble-- July 27th 2010)

I have no life but this,
To lead it here;
Nor any death, but lest
Dispelled from there;

Nor tie to earth to come,
Nor action new,
Except through this extent,
The realm of you.

1. I need a haircut.
2. My brother got his hair cut, and also picked up his schedule for this next year of school today.
3. I like watching The Weather Channel. A lot.
4. I can't trust anybody anymore, and that's okay. I have so few friends in the first place that cutting a few more out won't be too terribly hard to adjust to.
5. I can't wait until I can't find a clever way to announce what's going on in my life. But it has to wait just a while longer.
6. I need to pick out a few types of cars I am interested in.
7. I gotta stop chewing on my bottom lip and inside of my mouth. Anxiety sucks.
8. I got a free box of tampons in the mail today. Awesome.
9. Things need to hurry up and happen so I can get on with my life plans.
10. I added some quotes to the misc quotes section.

Girl, Interrupted Quotes
These are from the book, not the movie. Just in case those who've watched the movie are confused by the fact that they're not in the actual movie. =P

PS:

"And it is easy to slip into a parallel universe. There are so many of them: world of the insane, the criminal, the crippled, the dying, perhaps of the dead as well. These worlds exist alongside this world and resemble it, but are not in it."

"In the parallel universe the laws of physics are suspended. What goes up does not necessarily come down, a body at rest does not tend to stay at rest, and not every action can be counted on to provoke an equal and opposite reaction. Time, too is different. It may run in circles, flow backward, skip about from now to then. The very arrangement of molecules is fluid. Tables can be clocks, faces, flowers."

"But I wasn't simply going nuts, tumbling down a shaft into Wonderland. It was my misfortune--or salvation--to be at all times perfectly conscious of my misperceptions of reality. I never "believed" anything I saw or thought I saw. not only that, I correctly understood each new weird activity."

"Now, I would say to myself, you are feeling alienated from people and unlike other people, therefore you are projecting your discomfort onto them. When you look at a face, you see a blob of rubber because you are worried that your face is a blob of rubber."

"This clarity made me able to behave normally, which posed some interesting questions. Was everybody seeing this stuff and acting as though they weren't? Was insanity just a matter of dropping the act? If some people didn't see these things, what was the matter with them? Were they blind or something? These questions had me unsettled."

"Something had been peeled back, a covering or shell that works to protect us. I couldn't decide whether the covering was something on me or something attached to every thing in the world. It didn't matter, really, wherever it had been, it wasn't there anymore."

"And this was the main precondition, that anything might be something else. Once I'd accepted that, it followed that I might be mad, or that someone might think we mad. How could I say for certain that I wasn't, if I couldn't say for certain that a curtain wasn't a mountain range?"

omfgitstabitha (3:53:20 PM): you know what i hate?
omfgitstabitha (3:53:38 PM): mother fuckin roll-on deoderant, or any kind of gel deodorant
omfgitstabitha (3:53:45 PM): they don't DRY in the south because it's so humid
omfgitstabitha (3:53:57 PM): i have to use the solid kind because of that

And no, I have nothing else to report at the moment.
Enjoy this bit of Alabama wisdom, guys.

So I'm digging through my boxes of stuff today, and what do I find? TA-DA.

So here's today's little meditation, if you will:

July 24: "Women have felt the need to pretend to be happy in order to be feminine." --Gloria Steinem

Responsible people do what they have to do. Figuring out what we have to do, unfortunately, is a lot harder than it looks. How many "shoulds" should we listen to? How many are true? Should we really behave, think, and feel differently than we do? Who says so?
Those of us who are females with families have been held responsible for too many "shoulds." In our efforts to be everything to everybody, we've too often become nobody to ourselves-- always standing at the end of the line when wants and needs being addressed. Obviously this doesn't do a lot for our self-esteem. What's even worse is the popular culture's insistence that we should be happy about it.
But unrealistic ideals are not healthy. no one should be bullied into pretending happiness-- or accepting responsibility for other people's happiness. Because the goal itself is false, pursuing that goal diminishes self-esteem.
In general, pretending is of little use in building a better, happier life. Pretending that is grounded in delusion and denial is not true femininity or true anything else that has any value.
I am free to choose my own goals and the means of achieving them.

I was told I had to write a blog entry, so here it is. Haha

I guess you never know what you really want until something really life changing presents itself.

Pregnancy, even the possibility of it, changes everything.

I don't know how long it will take for me to find someone to start a family with whom I get along with, but I guess that's fine. I will just live my life. Things tend to happen when you're not looking for it. Proven fact.

So maybe the person I need will show up randomly in the future. If not that's fine. I'll be okay.

The most important thing anybody can ever do is the things that they think will make them happy.
So that's what I did.
There isn't much else to say.

Once I get a job I will start looking for apartments. =P
That will be super fun, no? Having a place to live that is more than a bedroom and isn't a house full of people who come and go all hours of the night will be awesome. Plus there will be significantly less DISHES TO WASH.
Haha.

My cat missed me. He's been all clingy since I got back. So cute.

I'm about to run to the store for shampoo and conditioner, since I didn't have room to pack that stuff and I'm always afraid it will explode somehow.

Catching up with some friends has been fun the past day or so.
Yesterday felt like two days worth of time because I stayed up really late last night talking. There's this one person I just can't, for the life of me, stop talking to... I don't think I've ever had a better friend than this person. It's refreshing for someone to actually check on me and see how I'm doing multiple times a day. That's what I've needed, someone who actually talks to me. It feels like something inside is coming back to life now that I have people I talk to regularly. Getting ignored 99% of the day is kind of a daunting feeling.

ANYWAYS. TO THE STORE! I guess my brother will have to drive me lol