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Grandfather is picking me up after church and I will be back in Fayette until sometime later this week.
I am taking more clothes so maybe I won't have to wear the same pants over and over again. Haha.
I dunno if I'll do anything tonight, it's a sunday.
But monday I intend to resume prowling around BSCC to look for people I know. I am tempted to take my clarinet up there and sit outside and play some music. Maybe people will giggle at me and if I leave a cup for donations they will throw me a quarter or two? LMAO
That would be hilarious.
I wonder if Chris Gordon is looking for any musicians. I should probably try to run into him. He might not remember me, I should probably make sure I have my clarinet in hand when I go talk to him, just to make sure he gets the picture. Haha.

Yesterday I took my little brother to the mall and we went to random stores.
We ended up talking to the guy working at Plan9 for what felt like an hour. I am almost positive that if I stayed much longer he might have asked me for my number. But naaaaah. He was really nice, though. And actually could hold a conversation with me even despite how awkward I am. It was funny. HE THOUGHT I WAS 26 YEARS OLD. 26. OMFG. DO I LOOK THAT OLD? I need to stop smoking, I must be getting wrinkly. hahaha.

We also went to Spencer's where we talked to the guys working there for AGES. My brother is AWESOME at talking to people. He just walks right up and starts talking. I am amazed at how good he is at talking to random people. I get nervous and stuff, but since he was there to fill in the awkward silence gaps and push conversation along, it went pretty well.
And when I told the guys he was my BROTHER they thought it was all cute that I would take him out and such. His hot older sister taking him to the mall. haha. I thought I might get him to talk to some little girls, play the "wing man" role, but what it ended up being was more like HE helped ME talk to guys. I totally didn't INTEND on talking to any guys, but he kind of didn't give me a choice when he decides to start talking to, oh, for example, some random ginger guy in gamestop for like..30 mins while we looked for a game that we might both like to play on the xbox.
Word.

But really, I am horribly awkward, and the only guy I'm interested in seriously is... unavailable. So I'm kind of just going to go out and flirt and make friends and socialize. SOCIALIZE. ME? IMPOSSIBLE. I know, but I am doing it, somehow. I am very proud of myself. Social anxiety sucks balls, but I am working through it. It is somehow getting easier.
I even asked about three different places if they were hiring. got an application to one place, and was told to bring one in to this other place, which I will probably do today, because it's in Fayette.
=)

AAAAHHH. I feel really good lately, everybody. Life is pretty good.

It feels like I am coming back to life again.

Anyways, I gotta pack up this laptop because I am taking it with me this time, so until I have more interesting news, that's all.

EVERYBODY GET BUSY LIVING, MMMKAY.

• "please let [name omitted] pay attention to me and perhaps even say something nice to me, like "hey red let's fuck" i sure could use some forcible rape right about now"
• "she decided to tell us all in detail about the buttsex she's having with some 30 year old guy who is half her height and bald as hell and has no car. COOL"
• "TL;DR I'M AN EMO WHORE"

I stayed with my grandparents in Fayette, AL from sunday until today.
I signed some initial paperwork regarding my divorce, and so that is soon to be underway.

I've spoken to Dennis a little bit more, and I am happy we can atleast have a phone conversation without yelling at each other. This divorce will be good for both of us, this is what we need. To go our separate ways.

Two of my cousins are taking classes at Bevill, and a friend from highschool (Tashana) is taking classes there. Also, Justin and Danielle, who I worked with are taking classes there. And I've meet a few people who I didn't previous know yesterday that I like very much (Adam is a very nice young man, he needs to cheer up. He's cute and smart and has a lot going for him in life, he'll find that out later though, he's got to get a few years under his belt, and then he'll realize how awesome he is).
It's so good to get out and make new friends.

I am putting applications everywhere, even places that I don't know are hiring. lol. All of these places are in Fayette, though, because at least if it's in Fayette I can borrow my grandfather's car on most days if I need to get to work. And it's a very short drive to get to work in the first place. If I worked in Tuscaloosa I would have a 30 min drive from my parents house, and I'd have to work out a deal with my little brother so I can drive his car.
So right now I have an application for Dollar General. I will put on in at BOTH locations in Fayette. I also will try Fred's and Walmart (as a last option).
I also know, from hearing from my Aunt Karen, that Head Start needs subs and is short on workers, and while I have no degree or anything with early childhood care/education... I think they said the subs don't need that sort of thing. EITHER WAY, oh well.

I also have decided that I indeed want to help some of the Bevill students with their classes. I am pretty damn good with literature and science (Biology specifically),
I have a pretty unique way of taking notes and studying, so it will kind of like an experiment to see if I can teach a student to take notes as effectively as I do, and make use of the methods I used. I will have to go see if I can dig up my notes from when I was in school to give them examples of how I did my notes.
Pretty much I wrote everything down from the lectures verbatim using short hand (for those who can't write as fast, you can get a little recorder to record lectures)... then I would underline or circle the major key terms-- chapter headings, subjects, words that are definitions, etc.
And then I would re write them in an outline form.
And something that is PARTICULARLY good for biology, is making a flow chart that breaks down the specific areas that you are studying. This works wonders on the more specific biology courses like Organismal Bio with all the phylum and classes and families and such.

right now I am watching the history channel and getting ready to start a NEW art journal full of interesting things. I have made a lot of observations about people over the past few days... I have come to come new conclusions about people and socializing. =) it's very interesting, indeed.

ANYWAYS.
I am excited.

I'm writing you this letter to let you know I'm not alright. And in this city the streets are paved with hate And you cry yourself to sleep tonight. And say "no, there aren't enough love songs in the sky." ...

Her first time exposed to
The games and bitter ends
Her last time to feel clean
In broken English she says:
"I lost everything
To one boy who said he was mine
He said he'd hold me forever"
Now she's sitting on my floor
Pulling out her hair to ease
That she's not sleeping again
...

Antigone laid across the road And let a mack truck leave her there for dead Just because her lover split the scene Well love might be great but why lose your head

Well, it's laughter that comes up when I cry for you
And my heart may break again before it learns
And I might be stupid enough to want to fall again
Cause I've gotten use to the crash and burn
I say I've gotten use to the crash and burn
...

This song has been a favorite of mine for YEARS. How appropriate.

Stars - "Your Ex-Lover Is Dead"
God that was strange to see you again
Introduced by a friend of a friend
Smiled and said 'yes I think we've met before'
In that instant it started to pour,
Captured a taxi despite all the rain
We drove in silence across Pont Champlain
And all of the time you thought I was sad
I was trying to remember your name...

I'm not sorry there's nothing to save...

Which looks like it usually does when I get it colored and cut. lol But STILL.

And yes, I am aware that me smiling is quite frightening. lmao. =)

-"i get to say "sir" after everything i say to him. "stop it, sir! stop eating my shoe, sir! you're retarded, sir!" it makes it sound like i'm accosting some random man that i don't know."

-"TL;DR i had fun, ran my phone over, and was on tv all over US and canada doing retarded shit... as usual"

-"saturday at work, when i was just sitting there in the 105 degree sun minding my own pathetic business, doc ran over to me and started screaming about a dead groundhog. just another day at the the office, right?!"

-"the monkey has ceased his once incessant sexual propositions"

-"i also remember an outdated video circa the 1970s wherein a dumbass little bitch cocks her dumbass little bitch head affectedly and slowly and deliberately ponders, "but, mrs. whatsherfuck! will we still be able to come to school when we're menstruating?!?!?!!?!?" to which mrs. whatsherfuck replies, with a swish of her 70s hairpiece, "of course, cindy, you ignorant little wench! having a period doesn't stop girls from going to school or work, or continuing with their everyday lives! HAHAHAHAHAHAA!"

-"i begrudgingly pulled on my booty shorts, slapped some sun tan lotion on my obscenely exposed ass cheeks and headed out the door"

-"...pandora's box is filled with fake toenails?"

-"every time they accidentally show the pokemon center on the today show i crap myself"

-"i just shut my nipple in my laptop when i turned it off and closed it... then i turned it back on to tweet about it"

You can all follow Jo on twitter: http://twitter.com/lionbones
Jo is my female soul mate that I can never be with. Instead I will day dream longingly of her curly red crazy hair and clever, insane comments.

my bestie is going to help me get this blog off of Dennis's shit.
as soon as he stops being sick and busy

in other news, I am apparently meeting with a judge thursday to discuss the divorce and find out what the hell I am supposed to do.
Apparently people expect me to magically know? IVE NEVER DONE THIS BEFORE, PEOPLE.
And I have to get money from my mom&dad to do this. Which makes me feel like a horrible person.

But people-- my entire family wants me divorced from him just as badly as he and his friends want us divorced.
Dont WORRY, it will get done. And soon, I hope. I'm wanting this just as bad as everybody else.

AND GUYS HERES A LITTLE NOTE:

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Haters be creepin', yo.