so the first have of this week has been pretty lax
i've had some weird sleep all day and night moments but I feel okay emotionally and mentally so I am not too worried about it
today i had a lot of chores to do so i am feeling very productive and i thought i would continue that feeling by blogging today
tomorrow i have to get everything ready for saturday
because saturday is the AP awards and I am going with Stan and I am excited
I am wearing my great grandmas dress. i dont care its vintage and i love it i don't care of it's not in style
after that is sunday which is laundry day and stan will need to rest from saturday
next monday i have an appointment with my psychologist/therapist and i need to make sure i write good journal notes on the AP awards banquet because we are trying to build my self esteem so i can function normally as a person
the fact that i am going to wear an old dress and have confidence is a good sign no?
then we have fathers day and i really hope stan talks to his dad and they have a good conversation.
I miss the relationship with Stans dad and them but I cant get it back and there's nothing i can do but just make sure Stan keeps in touch with them and keeps a good relationship with them despite me not being able to be there too. I know how important his Dad is to him and it would break my heart if they stopped talking. I have been really hard on myself about that because of how I understand the bond with a father figure (i'm really close with my dad too)
lots of mixed feelings and sad and good and excited.
but i guess thats what normal life feels like, isn't it?
i will find out one day.
Friday, June 1, 2018
So at the boil I was ok for the most part... But my anxiety meds made me feel like I was falling asleep. So that on top.of feeling left out because i couldnt drink... or chose not to because its the right thing to do for my health.
I just went to to bed so that's sad...Because I missed out on all the games and cards games and stuff.
booo lol its ok i chose to sleep
on thursday we had to go to birmingham for my psychologist appointment and he said i am working on a lot of stuff and he seems pleased with my progress or atleast my attempts and things to get better. we have really good discussions and the cognitive therapy is really good for me.
this weekend we are going out with two friends to the movies well, they're a couple. so it's a double date. which is fun. we are seeing the movie Solo.
stan and i also have two other movies to see soon. but its gonna have to wait because next weekend is an awards banquet we are going to. and the next is fathers day. and the next we will be going to KY for stan's class reunion (I am really excited about this and I get to see Stan's mom which is the best thing EVER. I love her so much)
I am going to wear my great grandmas dress to the awards banquet !!!!
and a dress from my mom to the reunion
I am excited. i think i'm gonna wear red shoes with the dress to the reunion because i can wear any color with the dress and i think red shoes would really "POP"
its supposed to storm today!
i'm gonna goahead and publish this now.
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