Today is laundry day and relaxing. Mom and dad left a few minutes ago for the casino in Mississippi that they like to go to. They had free nights at the hotel there so they are taking advantage of that.
Stan has been in pain since yesterday morning and I hoped he would feel better after sleeping but he doesnt and that makes me sad. I want to fix it and i can't and I get upset about it all the time and then he gets upset that I'm upset and it's this cycle of the feels over and over.
I have to try and not get upset about things. But it's really hard for me. 😥
So anyway. I woke up early around 6 and tried to stay awake and I went into the living room and had one of my full body spasms cause my body was sleepy but my brain wasn't. Or maybe my brain was sleepy but my body wasn't. All I know is it happens when I'm in bed falling asleep.... AND it also happens when I'm awake and fighting my sleep.
Then sometimes it happens when I'm not tired at all (at least not that I know of or can tell) which is the most confusing part of all because I don't know why it's happening.
I just write it off as a side effect of my psych meds. 💊
So anyway... Back to what I was saying.. Mom saw me do that (I haven't done it In the living room in public for a while now) and she told me to go back to bed. So I did. For a out 1.5 hours.
Then I got up. My parents were packing for their trip. They went to church at 11..went out to eat with pawpaw and got home around 1pm.
They left at 1:30pm. It's a pretty long drive down there. Well, it's not that long but it feels long. I'm used to long trips and it feels long to me.
They will come back Tuesday.
On top of that my (not so) little brother and his fiancée left to go to The casino too. They will hangout with mom and dad there but my brother isn't staying the night so he has to drive all the way back home tonight... Idk how the little guy does it.
I already ate too much today and it's just now 2pm. Fml fml fml 🍕🍩
I am going to try and distract myself with water and sugar free popsicles and Grey's anatomy.. Also Pokémon. Maybe art journaling. Or writing. Or reading.
Stan is really quiet today and that makes me scared that something is wrong.
In other news... The next big possible thing that will be happening or starting to happen on/around July 17 and after. A lot of shit might go down in a very small amount of time. But i am hopeful that it does because the end outcome will be amazing and fantastic and pretty much one of my all time childhood dreams come true. 🌅🌊🏖️⛱️🏝️
Though if this happens we will be canceling our anniversary beach trip to pcb. But it would totally be worth it lok
I have to go get the laundry and hang it up and start a load of white/light colors. Then I might take a nap. It's getting hard to keep my eyes focused right now.