its humpdayyyyy which means... i am... cleaning the bathroom-- and i have already done it... it was exhausting and i will probably be sore from scrubbing so much but i dont care feels good man i need the exercise
tonight i am cooking dinner for the first time in weeks and i am excited about it.. i might not eat that much of it but i do want to cook something who knows this might be the last month i have foodstamps to do this
i used the voice recorder stan let me borrow for the first time today... and this was after i had decided to give it back to him lol i'm weird.. but i just recorded myself rambling and talking about shit that was bothering me and i will take it to tara because i have trouble making completely sentences and thoughts come together when i am anxious and there and under pressure to do so but if i have recorded myself when i am not under pressure i can get things out and i hope this becomes a good way for me to communicate with my therapist and psychiatrist because i do not converse well i just... stutter and say the wrong words and its really weird i honestly think i might have some kind of other mental thing going on i just dont know what it is...
i am going to read now.. i finished the last book in the "dark is rising" series last night and it made me so sad because its over and i never wanted to finish it i just kept putting off reading it because its over and its OVER ok.. i dont want it to beeee i love ittt
i guess i will have to indulge in the Madeline L'Engle stuff now... a wrinkle in time has already been read and i have the other books in that set and there are more books that branch off i think about the families ---which is how i first read "an endless circle of light" by chance and got into reading those books... in that series that are kind of related but not.. i think i dont know.. its... i need to look up a flow chart hierarchy family thing for the characters and see how they are connected because i am sure they are. but then you know.. when i finsih all those book i will be even more sad because thats another of my favorite things that is over and booooooooooo
i will have to find something else to be enchanted with.... oh my.. what possibilities
i have so many books to read...
i have started watching netflix again and its cutting into my reading time lol.. no good no good.
okay i am going to shut up now and go read until i need to start cooking dinner- which is a good time from now so i should be able to get a lot of reading done, i hope.
lol jk i cuddled with the dog and took an hour nap. i seem to be taking 1 hour power naps every day now but it works pretty good. i wake up on my own and usually realize it exactly an hour last i checked time
i am getting drowsy again though and i am sad because i dont want to be tired and cooking dinner though it wont be hard to cook i just dont... wanna be all whiney while im doing it
i need to decide what book to read.... i know i'm going to read another Anna Katharine Green novel and this "self help yes you can" book but i surely need to read some of the random paper back books lying around... right?
however right now i think i will add to my positive thought notebook in my fauxdori.. or.. nap... again... maybe... i dunno
the psychiatrist has agreed to put me back on the 60 mgs of prozac i was on when i started seeing him and that has been able to pull me out ...
so the weekend get away was great. we gave decided to do that more often. it was really good for us. mentally and emotionally and as a coupl...
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I have finally gotten all the Christmas cards we plan to send ready. Now I gotta get to post office. They will probably be late but I tried ...