the pain and pressure in my head that i suppose is some kind of severe congestion or sinus allergy thing
oh god--- its bad bad bad...
like my entire left side of my head feels like its pulsating with pain. my jaw bone and my teeth even hurt, my cheekbones under there .. behind my ear.. just.. every fucking where
the only thing that makes it tolerable is sleep and last night i couldnt even sleep no matter how much shit i took to make me sleep
it was just that bad
and this is on top of the not being able to breath panic attack thing that happens when i go out in public lately
jesus christ this is ridiculous i want to stop playing the game of life i am done this is not fucking fair
so anyways at some point i woke up to stan and it was late afternoon and time for food apparent. i ate and watched LostGirl and decided that if i didnt practice clarinet now i wouldnt get to before band tomorrow so i did it and passed out. awake now at 8pm
and i swear if its not my head or chest its my fucking stomach/bowels
stan is taking care of me so much it makes me feel like a fucking failure as a wife and its driving me insane
the psychiatrist has agreed to put me back on the 60 mgs of prozac i was on when i started seeing him and that has been able to pull me out ...
so the weekend get away was great. we gave decided to do that more often. it was really good for us. mentally and emotionally and as a coupl...
So... The festival was yesterday. And we had bad luck with the shepards hill place again. I tried it last year and didn't sell anything....
I have finally gotten all the Christmas cards we plan to send ready. Now I gotta get to post office. They will probably be late but I tried ...