Monday, September 29, 2014
not the best start to a week
which is ok i am not exactly feeling that great either
i think i might need to adjust my melatonin dose if i am going to drink the sleepytime and the calming yogi tea... lol
holy mess i am crashing already and its not even 10am ZZZZZZZzzzzzzz
i think herc is ok
i need caffeine
i was just taking one pill a day here lately and ive ran out finally
i am feel like a fat ass and i dont know what to do
my head is killing me today but its no where NEAR as bad as i was a few days ago...
it was pretty tolerable until i took Herc outside to pee just now... its like getting hit in the face with a door or something... the outside air and allergens or whatever... like a smack in the head..
i am so not excited about much of anything anymore.
i either feel too sick to make jewelry or have other obligations with chores or people or pets or family or idek... so i cam not getting any work done hardly
and its not like i feel the am feeling too excited about making shit right now--- nothing is selling and i feel like a worthless piece of SHIT.
like all day every day
just a worthless useless piece of crap
and i dont want to go back to work at some shit job that is going to drive my anxiety over the top i dont even know if i could make it through a week i feel so worthless why am i ever here
ok just fuck it i am gonna comb my hair and watch tv and cry bbl
ok i feel better
im watching Witches of East End
the psychiatrist has agreed to put me back on the 60 mgs of prozac i was on when i started seeing him and that has been able to pull me out ...
so the weekend get away was great. we gave decided to do that more often. it was really good for us. mentally and emotionally and as a coupl...
So... The festival was yesterday. And we had bad luck with the shepards hill place again. I tried it last year and didn't sell anything....
I have finally gotten all the Christmas cards we plan to send ready. Now I gotta get to post office. They will probably be late but I tried ...