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So today I fiiiiiinally got to see some people from highschool. YESSS. I got to see Kate Greene Wilcoxen and Lauren Long! We ate at Olive Garden (or they did, haha, I was too busy TALKING so I took my food home in a to-go box. Which I devoured as soon as Kate left after dropping me off a few hours ago.) I really adore Lauren, and I am a bit mad at myself for not being closer friends with her when we were younger. We all should have talked more, in general. Anyways, it was awesome and I plan to get back in touch with her more often, and even talk to more people from NHS. I'm a different person, a lot of things have happened. And I want to apologize for some things I have done and said to some of these lovely ladies I went to school with. I didn't get around to it tonight, but if I remember correctly the two or three people I really need to apologize to are Jill, Rhysie, and Holly. So someday I will suck it up and make myself do it, because it has been on my conscious for years now. And it makes me loathe myself. =/ ANYWAYS....
After dinner Kate took me to Barnes and Nobel, and I got some books. That I shouldn't have gotten. Oops. Haha. Kate got some coffee, and then she drove me to my house. She came in with the intention of just saying hi to my parents, but she ended up staying a while. We looked at old pictures of our high school band shenanigans. Oh to be young and able to go to honor bands again. I miss playing so much new music with new conductors. I really liked the experience of being directed by so many different people from all over the world, and also playing so much music. I wish I could play in a group again, playing by yourself just isn't as much fun as making music with a group of people, you know? Kate and I also talk about body image issues and such, I told her and Lauren some very private, soul bearing things. But I trust them. I really do. And sometimes it just feels so much better to come out and say things rather than hide them, and that's what eating disorders tend to be about anyways... secrets and hiding things. So NONE OF THAT. =P

Lots of stuff is happening shortly. Tomorrow is mine and Dennis's 3 month anniversary of being married. =P My dad is off work, so Dennis and dad will be on the roof putting up more metal roof, and in the late afternoon they are going to stop and clean up and we are all going to town to have dinner as a family. We haven't had a chance to all eat out at once together since we got here because one of us is always busy and can't be there, so this is special. My parents have always made sure that my brother and I know the importance of sit down family meals, or at least having everybody present often enough. Keeps the family together better, I think.

Saturday Dennis and I have to pack things up.... I don't wanna goooo. But we have to. Sunday we leave as early as possible for Griffin, GA. We're going to stay with his grandfather for two days or so, and then head over to Augusta, GA to see Grandma Betty and Ralph. I'm super excited about seeing them again. I actually feel comfortable with them for the most part, which is saying a lot for me, because I have really bad anxiety.... ESPECIALLY when meeting other people's family!!! And considering how much of Dennis's family thinks I am crazy, stupid, an idiot, and the "biggest mistake Dennis ever made"... yeah. I don't even know.
All I can do is just be myself, keep taking care of Dennis and loving him and being as open and friendly as I can with everyone who will have anything to do with me. I can't change what people think, all I can do is just do the best that I can, the best that I know how. My momma raised me to as much of a lady as I could be... and I know I'm not that great, but I do try. =/

AND SO, we will be back in Holyoke... in time to go to Rebecca and Patricia's high school graduation, though we've heard that Patricia doesn't intend to walk. Which I kind of understand, it's just a ceremonial type thing. And in the grand scheme of things, it doesn't really mean anything whether you do it or not, you still got it done. I am excited, though, about the possibility of seeing Rebecca again. I can't lie, I adore her. She is awesome and adorable and funny and quite talented in clothing design. I hope she gets to follow her dreams and pursue that path in her life.

SO ANYWAY. I got two new books. And a replacement copy of Madness: A Bipolar Life.
One of the books is Gaining: The Truth About Life After Eating Disorders,
and the other is Unquiet Mind.
I also need to get on reading Snuff by Palahniuk, so that I can then read Pygmy and then purchase Tell All.

I got a new cell phoneeeee, since I sat my fat butt down on mine. Haha. I got a Samsung Flight. And a super cool, totally me cover case for it. So that wraps up this entry. This was a loooong one. haha.